Just need to post
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Just need to post
Hi all...I haven't posted for a couple of weeks. Some of you might remember me, weekend binge drinker guy (oh, I guess that could describe quite a few people on here 
). I think in my last post I was just about to start a motorcycle course and was really happy because I hadn't drank for a couple of weekends and was feeling great. Well I finished the course and have my final road test tomorrow to get my class 6 license...which is pretty cool. But I have to admit...I have drank in the last couple of weeks.
Uncharacteristically two weeks ago I drank during the week. It was the Stanley cup finals and I would come home from work and have a few beers and smokes during the week. I actually only had 2-3 each night (I wanted to have more but somehow because it was a weeknight I could reign myself in) but that is pretty unusual of me. Although I have often had beers while watching hockey.
Then last Friday night I had 13 beers, went out and scored a quarter bag of weed and woke up Saturday feeling like absolute ****. I haven't had so much as a cigarette since then and feel pretty darn good...but I have tomorrow off, and I have a hard time seeing this weekend without beers. Especially if I pass my road test tomorrow morning. I can so see myself going home tomorrow afternoon and celebrating by getting toasted, when I should be celebrating by going for a long cruise on my bike. I still have the quarter bag of weed. I actually stashed it down in my underground storage locker at our condo cuz I didn't want it anywhere near me, and I couldn’t bring myself to flush it.
I'm pretty torn. I love waking up sober and feeling great and I love all the things being sober and clean allows me to do (like ride my motorcycle, I don't go near it once I have a beer)...but I must admit the temptation to get really toasted on beer and weed while smoking a pack or two of smokes is very appealing to me as well. But I know if I do that I will have to go through my mini withdrawal\detox before work on Monday. What a stupid vicious cycle this **** is. I am going to try the just don't drink today thing tomorrow...I've done it before so hopefully I can do it again.
Anyway, I just wanted to post my dilemma to see if it helps my resolve to stay clean. Thanks for listening.
Oh, and I just want to say again that reading everyone’s posts and stories on this site really inspires me to want to be clean and sober…it gives me a lot of hope that it can be done permanently.
). I think in my last post I was just about to start a motorcycle course and was really happy because I hadn't drank for a couple of weekends and was feeling great. Well I finished the course and have my final road test tomorrow to get my class 6 license...which is pretty cool. But I have to admit...I have drank in the last couple of weeks. Uncharacteristically two weeks ago I drank during the week. It was the Stanley cup finals and I would come home from work and have a few beers and smokes during the week. I actually only had 2-3 each night (I wanted to have more but somehow because it was a weeknight I could reign myself in) but that is pretty unusual of me. Although I have often had beers while watching hockey.
Then last Friday night I had 13 beers, went out and scored a quarter bag of weed and woke up Saturday feeling like absolute ****. I haven't had so much as a cigarette since then and feel pretty darn good...but I have tomorrow off, and I have a hard time seeing this weekend without beers. Especially if I pass my road test tomorrow morning. I can so see myself going home tomorrow afternoon and celebrating by getting toasted, when I should be celebrating by going for a long cruise on my bike. I still have the quarter bag of weed. I actually stashed it down in my underground storage locker at our condo cuz I didn't want it anywhere near me, and I couldn’t bring myself to flush it.
I'm pretty torn. I love waking up sober and feeling great and I love all the things being sober and clean allows me to do (like ride my motorcycle, I don't go near it once I have a beer)...but I must admit the temptation to get really toasted on beer and weed while smoking a pack or two of smokes is very appealing to me as well. But I know if I do that I will have to go through my mini withdrawal\detox before work on Monday. What a stupid vicious cycle this **** is. I am going to try the just don't drink today thing tomorrow...I've done it before so hopefully I can do it again.
Anyway, I just wanted to post my dilemma to see if it helps my resolve to stay clean. Thanks for listening.
Oh, and I just want to say again that reading everyone’s posts and stories on this site really inspires me to want to be clean and sober…it gives me a lot of hope that it can be done permanently.
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Thanks for sharing and it's good to see you back here. I admire your honesty and think it takes great courage to admit that we're not done yet, but I also hope you find a way to stay clean and sober, especially since you're going to riding that motorcycle around.
I got my first bike back in the mid-80's, I was well into my drinking career and made the same promise that I'd never ride after a drink. Then the thought process started of "well, maybe riding after one or two won't be so bad". Gradually I worked up to 6, then a dozen, you know what I mean, right? Then there was the night I had well over 24 and couldn't stand up, but I crawled around on my hands and knees until I found the bike, pulled myself up onto, and somehow made it home without killing myself or anyone else. Shortly after that I sold it, I knew I was going to die if I continued to drink and ride.
Last year I got the itch again and bought a brand new cruiser. Riding clean and sober is an amazing experience. And looking back at my past experience with riding, I'm still not sure why I'm alive. Guess someone was looking out for me, huh?
I got my first bike back in the mid-80's, I was well into my drinking career and made the same promise that I'd never ride after a drink. Then the thought process started of "well, maybe riding after one or two won't be so bad". Gradually I worked up to 6, then a dozen, you know what I mean, right? Then there was the night I had well over 24 and couldn't stand up, but I crawled around on my hands and knees until I found the bike, pulled myself up onto, and somehow made it home without killing myself or anyone else. Shortly after that I sold it, I knew I was going to die if I continued to drink and ride.
Last year I got the itch again and bought a brand new cruiser. Riding clean and sober is an amazing experience. And looking back at my past experience with riding, I'm still not sure why I'm alive. Guess someone was looking out for me, huh?
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thanks primal scream.
i hope things go well on your bike test saturday.
I also hope they go well after you pass the test. Maybe we can start to visualize the ride that you are going to take after you pass the test.
that would be so cool to ride a bike. i had small one for a short period of time as a young adult. I would love to try that again...kind've,...i'm a little more fearful of the cars now.
i hope things go well on your bike test saturday.
I also hope they go well after you pass the test. Maybe we can start to visualize the ride that you are going to take after you pass the test.
that would be so cool to ride a bike. i had small one for a short period of time as a young adult. I would love to try that again...kind've,...i'm a little more fearful of the cars now.
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Hi Primal.... Sporting event's were always a tigger for me to drink...somehow I've made it with NBA playoffs on (just stay home n watch). Glad your back posting!
I also love bikes, been riding all my life. Starting with dirtbikes in the 6th grade. Just like Astro said, I somehow always made it home...I would sell it and buy another one once I moderated my drinking for awhile...only to go back to heavy drinking....I am going to ride this weekend & No Drinking!
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I also love bikes, been riding all my life. Starting with dirtbikes in the 6th grade. Just like Astro said, I somehow always made it home...I would sell it and buy another one once I moderated my drinking for awhile...only to go back to heavy drinking....I am going to ride this weekend & No Drinking!
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Thanks guys, Sweet ride ThisIsTheDay! I have a 79 Honda CB400 ...it's an oldie but a goodie...good bike for a beginner. My father and brother in-law helped me restore it so it looks pretty sweet. I know for a fact you won't catch me drinking and riding...right now I need all my faculty's to stay on the road when I am stone cold sober lol...I absolutely couldn't imagine trying to ride with a few beers in me. Actually, in a way, riding makes me not want to drink...I know that I can either drink or ride when it is nice and sunny out...so by choosing riding I am staying sober...just have to remember to stay sober after the ride is over...
One big hurtle I will have to get over is the fact that my father in-law is a smoker and a drinker...the two things I would like to get out of my life. He is cool and really in to bikes, he has at least a dozen of them. So on weekends I ride down to his place and we play (see working on) motorbikes all day in his backyard while drinking and smoking...that's gonna be a tough one.
...it's an oldie but a goodie...good bike for a beginner. My father and brother in-law helped me restore it so it looks pretty sweet. I know for a fact you won't catch me drinking and riding...right now I need all my faculty's to stay on the road when I am stone cold sober lol...I absolutely couldn't imagine trying to ride with a few beers in me. Actually, in a way, riding makes me not want to drink...I know that I can either drink or ride when it is nice and sunny out...so by choosing riding I am staying sober...just have to remember to stay sober after the ride is over...One big hurtle I will have to get over is the fact that my father in-law is a smoker and a drinker...the two things I would like to get out of my life. He is cool and really in to bikes, he has at least a dozen of them. So on weekends I ride down to his place and we play (see working on) motorbikes all day in his backyard while drinking and smoking...that's gonna be a tough one.
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I had a Honda CB400 back in the day...great bike! Yes if your father in-law is a smoker and a drinker...wow yo have to be strong around him. I still have not went around my biker buddies yet and we are supose to ride this weekend. Not sure if I will yet, maybe need another week under my belt!
Sure Krista....ready for a roadtrip....
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Sure Krista....ready for a roadtrip....
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oh yeaaaaa....rock on baby, I'm there.........
except...it might be a little too easy to just give me a quick "accidental" push off the back of the bike if I got annoying...
maybe I'll take another week or two too......
except...it might be a little too easy to just give me a quick "accidental" push off the back of the bike if I got annoying...
maybe I'll take another week or two too......
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