Miracles are REALLY happening to me!
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Miracles are REALLY happening to me!
Without going into detail.....I really believe miracles are happening in my life.
The 'old me' woulda scoffed at that for many reasons, one being...it must be too early in my sobriety for a miracle to happen.
BUT.....I can honestly say that without a doubt, I 100% believe that I experienced a miracle this morning.
I have been doing so much work on my recovery. So much that I am actually going to take a break from it today....not internally, just from the actual 'studying' and 'work' that I've been doing. Of coarse I'll continue to mull over the things I'm learning, reflect and meditate on them today. But today I feel as though I just need to 'be'. And it's feeling GREAT.
I can't believe 'recovery' actually had the answer all along.....WHY didn't I do this earlier...years and years and years ago! I said 'no way' to it so many times....guess where that got me? Yip...right back in the bottle.
Anyways, point is....I'm feeling so positive and motivated and more interested in recovery than I ever dreamed I'd be.
I've been waiting for my pink cloud, but ya know what, this feels a bit better. I've been on the pink cloud a few times before, and when it dissipated, I feel hard. But this feels better, it feels like I actually deserve to feel like this, as though I worked for it. I earned it. It doesn't feel as euphoric as the pink clouds of the past have, but it feels stronger and more secure.
Ok, going to make myself the biggest sandwich you've ever seen! Now that the flu is gone, I'm not going to stop eating all day!
Hope you're all enjoying your day/night.
Tay.
SIDENOTE: I certainly don't mean to put down pink clouds!
If you're on one, awesome! Really.
The 'old me' woulda scoffed at that for many reasons, one being...it must be too early in my sobriety for a miracle to happen.
BUT.....I can honestly say that without a doubt, I 100% believe that I experienced a miracle this morning.
I have been doing so much work on my recovery. So much that I am actually going to take a break from it today....not internally, just from the actual 'studying' and 'work' that I've been doing. Of coarse I'll continue to mull over the things I'm learning, reflect and meditate on them today. But today I feel as though I just need to 'be'. And it's feeling GREAT.
I can't believe 'recovery' actually had the answer all along.....WHY didn't I do this earlier...years and years and years ago! I said 'no way' to it so many times....guess where that got me? Yip...right back in the bottle.
Anyways, point is....I'm feeling so positive and motivated and more interested in recovery than I ever dreamed I'd be.
I've been waiting for my pink cloud, but ya know what, this feels a bit better. I've been on the pink cloud a few times before, and when it dissipated, I feel hard. But this feels better, it feels like I actually deserve to feel like this, as though I worked for it. I earned it. It doesn't feel as euphoric as the pink clouds of the past have, but it feels stronger and more secure.
Ok, going to make myself the biggest sandwich you've ever seen! Now that the flu is gone, I'm not going to stop eating all day!
Hope you're all enjoying your day/night.
Tay.
SIDENOTE: I certainly don't mean to put down pink clouds!
If you're on one, awesome! Really. 
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Another Little Miracle....
I wasn't going to post the following, I thought it may be inappropriate as it wasn't exactly 'recovery related'. But then I thought....if it makes someone smile, why not?
After feeding the baby it was her nap time. I usually put her down while she is still awake....but today I couldn't resist. The fire was going and I was sitting in front of a big window watching the snow fall. I held my little angel in my arms while she fell asleep. As she snuggled up into me, her chubby cheeks resting on my neck, I could smell her sweet baby smell and I could feel her heart beating against mine. Her tiny fingers wrapped tightly around my thumb. It felt like nothing else on earth. I don't ever remember 'being in the moment' like that. It was completely overwhelming. One of the best moments of my life so far.
After feeding the baby it was her nap time. I usually put her down while she is still awake....but today I couldn't resist. The fire was going and I was sitting in front of a big window watching the snow fall. I held my little angel in my arms while she fell asleep. As she snuggled up into me, her chubby cheeks resting on my neck, I could smell her sweet baby smell and I could feel her heart beating against mine. Her tiny fingers wrapped tightly around my thumb. It felt like nothing else on earth. I don't ever remember 'being in the moment' like that. It was completely overwhelming. One of the best moments of my life so far.
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Isn't it great?! I dont have any kids. But I think of my little cousins as my own and they never cease to amaze me with every little thing they do and say. Children are a very special presense in the world. They remind me everyday of the simple most wonderful things life has to offer.
I love it Tay....Enjoy the moments.
I love it Tay....Enjoy the moments.
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Originally Posted by tay-lyn 
I wasn't going to post the following, I thought it may be inappropriate as it wasn't exactly 'recovery related'. But then I thought....if it makes someone smile, why not?
After feeding the baby it was her nap time. I usually put her down while she is still awake....but today I couldn't resist. The fire was going and I was sitting in front of a big window watching the snow fall. I held my little angel in my arms while she fell asleep. As she snuggled up into me, her chubby cheeks resting on my neck, I could smell her sweet baby smell and I could feel her heart beating against mine. Her tiny fingers wrapped tightly around my thumb. It felt like nothing else on earth. I don't ever remember 'being in the moment' like that. It was completely overwhelming. One of the best moments of my life so far.
After feeding the baby it was her nap time. I usually put her down while she is still awake....but today I couldn't resist. The fire was going and I was sitting in front of a big window watching the snow fall. I held my little angel in my arms while she fell asleep. As she snuggled up into me, her chubby cheeks resting on my neck, I could smell her sweet baby smell and I could feel her heart beating against mine. Her tiny fingers wrapped tightly around my thumb. It felt like nothing else on earth. I don't ever remember 'being in the moment' like that. It was completely overwhelming. One of the best moments of my life so far.
I love your post. To me, this is absolutely recovery related in many ways. You have the clarity of mind to experience the real beauty of life - a reward. Your little angel gives you strength to stay sober & keep working hard. For me, my children symbolize my Higher Power - their innocence, laughter, love, spirit.
I have to share my own little story from last night. I was watching TV and my little boy & little girl came into the room & started dancing around me (in their underwear
) 'playing' instruments they made themselves (maracas & a clicker thingy). They were just beaming with pride. I couldn't help but laugh with them, so proud of them - my children are the true gifts in my life.The miracles are everywhere!
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Not recovery related?
Tay that is perhaps the most recovery related vignette I've ever read. Brought me back 20+ years. To a place and time that could be 20 minutes ago, it is so fresh in my mind.
The signs of recovery in your description literally SCREAM, although the moment one of quiet and serenity.
I am SO glad for your share. Besides a sign of your growth, it has allowed some of us to revel in our own recovery. Because only those actively recovering could be so affected (as I was ) by such a simple moment.
My babies' smell and their naked bodies on my chest, exchanging heartbeats, are probably the defining moments in my life. Thank you for bringing me back there. I needed that.
warrens
Tay that is perhaps the most recovery related vignette I've ever read. Brought me back 20+ years. To a place and time that could be 20 minutes ago, it is so fresh in my mind.
The signs of recovery in your description literally SCREAM, although the moment one of quiet and serenity.
I am SO glad for your share. Besides a sign of your growth, it has allowed some of us to revel in our own recovery. Because only those actively recovering could be so affected (as I was ) by such a simple moment.
My babies' smell and their naked bodies on my chest, exchanging heartbeats, are probably the defining moments in my life. Thank you for bringing me back there. I needed that.
warrens
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glad all is well & happy. little miracles happen everyday, sometimes we just don't take the time to notice them & sometimes it can be difficult to notice as we become involved with routines. god's work is crafty.
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