aasharon90

Hi, my name is Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people like you
here in SR. I havent had a drink of alcohol
since 8-11-90.

That was 17 yrs ago and today I am
very grateful.

What happened to me was....

A stay at home mom. I took care
of my 2 kids first rewarding myself
with a drink to unwhine. Put my plan
into play, pizz my spouse off and have
an excuse to leave for the evening.

I got my tall cup of liquor, sexy shoes,
lipstick and purfume. Head out to only
stop along the way to fix myself up
before heading to the club.

Adrinnaline flowing, music playing,
feeling GREAT.

A night spent mingling, listening to
music, dancing with whomever, leaving
with whomever, realizing its 2am. D** i
have to go home.

Racing to get home. Stop at a light, music
playing, race the car next to me down
the road....playing cat and mouse. Going
up the road the wrong way...

Dont know what happened, blinding car
lights, run into construction a mile from home.
Hit a concret culvert sitting on top the
ground sending me to the hospital for 10
days via the backseat of an EMS truck.

Dont remember the ride....many broken
rib, contusions, punctured spleen that was
removed so i wouldnt bleed to death.

3 months , i healed almost perfectly. Picked
up my first drink, spiraled out of control to
where i ended up at the club, repeating
the same thing, an arguement followed and
tried to end my life.

A hand full of pills, liquor and sleep.

Kids couldnt wake me. However a faint ring
of the phone aroused me....Was it my HP calling
me to get up because He wasnt thru with me yet.

YES...I believe that with all my heart.

Family intervention takes place, family doing for
me what i couldnt do for myself sending me to
rehab via the backseat of a handless police
car.

First night, the crazy ward at Parkland Hospital.
Next day passed all test, find out i have a drinking
problem and was send upstairs to Silkworth.

Spent 2week before they considered to send me
home saying i wouldnt stay sober. Made a
decision to stay 28 days with 6 week outpatiant
aftercare.

Recieved tools and knowledge of my disease
of alcoholism and set on the path of recovery
one day at a time.

17 yrs of many ODAAT collected following the
suggestions and principles set down before us
to the best of my ability.

Today, ive moved back home here to Baton Rouge,
after 10 yr stay in Houston with my family. My
extended vacation came to an end when a
wonderful job opportunity came up and allowed
me to return home to my recovery support.

Yes, my 25 yr marriage is separated now by
distance but thru many tears and prayers
im doing for me what i need to do to be
HAPPY JOYOUS AND FREE with myself.

Without recovery I have nothing, I am
nothing.

Today I am Happier, Joyous And Free from
the bondage of self and alcohol. Tomorrow
hasnt gotten here yet....so im not worrying.

Thanks to you here in SR I am able to share my
own experiences, strengths and hope in order
to help those that follow behind me knowing that
this program does work if you work it.

Thanks for letting me share.

BrokenWife

Wow, thanks for sharing your story! So happy that you are where you are today. It's not easy but it can be done. Hope that one day I can say my AH is sober for 17 years!

aasharon90

Thanks brokenwife..... i understand the frustration
and all that comes with being in a marriage or relationship
when one of the 2 is sick.

I know for myself i wasnt easy to live with even tho
i tried my best.....

When one is sick with a disease we have medicine
we need to take on a daily bases.....for me my
daily dose was AA meetings. My recovery network.
Support....sure i had my own emmediate
little family, husband kids and yes they knew
how important it was for me to stay sober....yet
they never really understood me because they
we not the sick one with the disease of alcoholism.

Being in recovery helps us go thru changes and
cope without the use of mood, mind altering
drugs....for so long i numbed myself with alcohol
so i wouldnt feel the pains of my childhood or think
of the pain i went thru.....

Anyway....when i got sober and was handed the tools
to help me stay sober one day at a time....i used them....
i listened and absorbed all that i could at meetings
and others just like me to help me and guide me
thru touch trying times....

I was thinking this morning.....i use to not want to
be labaled an alcoholic. I didnt want to have to
go to meetings....I didnt want to be different
from others.....yet today i think differently.

Im glad, proud to be who i am....I was brought into
this world for a reason.....and today the reason is
to be of service to others just like me who have
the same disease of alcoholism.....to share what
happened to me before during and after alcohol.

Sharing my own experiences strengths and hopes.

Changes dont happen over night....it takes time and
willingness to go to any lengths....to follow the steps
and directions of a program set down before us yrs ago....

If the program didnt work then there wouldnt be many
who have passed on or still today sharing the miracles
of recovery with us.....

They r all testemonies that this program of Alcoholics
Anonymous does work providing u work it too....

and to find all the answers u need to stay sober
are right there in ur Big Book Of AA.

Seek and you shall find.

For the family members suffering as well there r
other programs designed just for u to help
you and guide you, so they u wont become a
victim of this disease.....

its important that u take care of urselves so that
u can be of useful service to others too.

Stay strong.

CarolD

:


Congrtulations on 17 years!

aasharon90

It was a nice meeting...i brought my cookie cake and
members enjoyed it thru out the meeting.

Right off the bat the floor was handed over to my
friend Don who has 20 something yrs sober. He
spoke a few wonderful kind words before presenting
me with my 17 yr chip. How grateful i am to have
another day sober....

I shared my ESH with a room full of people and spoke
honestly and truthfully.....then the meeting carried on.

I then sat outside with a few members in the shade
and chatted for a few hours....

Im so glad to be back home here in Baton Rouge, and
back home with my AA family....

Thank you SR for being here for me as u have been
my life line to recovery as well.

cmc

Congrats!!!
Thanks for sharing your ESH too.

aasharon90

19 Yrs. Of Experience, Strength and Hope Today.


Hi Im Sharon and Im an alcoholic.

By the grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR I havent found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.

Today I am extremely grateful
for the many one days at a time
that Ive collected over the past
19 yrs.

I began my journey beginning with
a ride in the back of a police car
after a failed attempt to end my
miserable life.

The warning signs were already there
way back in Feb 1990 when i ran
off the road and hit a concrete
culvert sitting on top the ground
at 2am returning home from a
local club.

However, with a ride in the EMS
truck that I dont recall, having
my punctured spleen removed
so i wouldnt bleed to death and
10 day stay in the hospital, ud
think enough was enough.

Well....it wasnt.....the progression
of my disease of alcoholism from
Feb. to Aug. snuck up on me so
fast that it still astonishes me today.

While i was recovering from my
accident, i didnt drink months
afterwards because i was on pain
pills. As soon as they had no more
pain to heal I emmediately picked
up a drink which i later learned
it was picking up right where i left
off back in Feb.

One drink was never enough nor
ever will be. Today tomorrow
or ever.

So instead i found relief from the
obsession to drink by following
the principles of the program of
Alcoholics Anonymous.

For me it is a way of life living the
steps in my everyday affairs.

I dont place myself in situations
that would make me feel uncom-
fortable like going to clubs where
alcohol flows freely. All those so
call friends i thought i had are
probably still there and i surround
myself with those just like me
who understand what it is to
be an alcoholic.

To live life one day at a time
knowing that i am just one drink
away from a drunk.

I share my ESH with many and
turn my will and life over to a HP
that i understand.

Today I can say that I live a
life happy joyous and free as
you read from ur Big Book on
the Promises u recieve if u
follow the path.

Thanks to you my SR family
for being here for me over
the yrs.

You are much appreciated.

Mariposa18

:day1 Inspiring~ God Bless You

Charmie

happy birthday sharon and thank you for your share,your esh and for all your words of support on this forum.i just got 6 months and its a miracle.only by the Grace of God,the fellowship,good sponsorship and the God given 12 step recovery programme.thanks again.

aasharon90

Thanks you. Much appreciated as always.

I tried to post my 19 yrs with a new thread
with no luck, so i found my 17 yrs.......
Hey what happen to my 18 yrs.... hmmmmm

Ill have to go look to make sure im really
at 19...lol

aasharon90

Ah, i found it....there wasnt much
activity with me here in SR but did
share my 18th birthday with u guys.

I was going thru lots of changes in
my life at that time and like yrs
before SR has always been here for me
and I emmensely thank you.



Hi Im Sharon and Im an Alcoholic.

By the Grace of my HP and people
like you here in SR. I havent found
it necessary to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and you I am truely grateful.

No, Im not new to Alcoholics Anonymous.

Been sober for a few plus yrs. now and
very grateful to be here alive and well.

Ill share a little bit about myself and
how I ended up in recovery.

My story is my own and it began when
I was a small child physically, verbally
and emotionally abused. One of 4 kids,
I was chosen to endure such pain.

Never wanting to be like my mom, I
surely took on the characteristics
of an alcoholic. However I broke the
chain of abuse and thus never hurt
my own little ones like I was.

Seemed like all my life i was never happy.
Never satisfied. Always looking for
love, affection and recognition in all
the wrong people, places and things.

At the age of 30 my alcoholism began
to turn on me and that is when I lost
control. Feb. 0f 90 I had a bad accident
running off the road hitting a concrete
culvert and sending me to a 10 day stay
at the hospital where i almost died.

A punctured spleen cause me to have
internal bleeding and unless it was removed
emmediately I would have bled to death.

3 months I healed quite nicely with the
use of pain pills. When they stopped
working for me I reached for the
bottle once more and tried to end my
miserable life.

From Feb. 90 to Aug.90 the progression
of my disease was so rapid I had no idea
how close I was to dieing.

A family intervention saved my life as
I spent the next 28 days in rehab. recieving
the tools and knowledge of my disease.

I was then set on the path of recovery
following the principles and 12 steps
passed on to me to guide me one step
at a time.

Just recently I returned to my home town
after a 10 yr stay in Texas. Seems as tho
all my life I have done for others. Did
what others told me to do. Always hushed
up. Never recieving validation for things
Ive done. Always pushed aside. Never
feeling good enough about myself to
speak my peace and when done so,
quickly hushed up and pushed aside.

Today is different. Only a few short hours
away from 18 yrs sober, my HP willing,
I can honestly say I am FREE.

Free from the bondage of Alcohol. Freedom
from the bondage of low self-esteem, self-
worth. Freedom from a 25 yr. marriage
which didnt allow me to grow and blossom
into the more secured, confident person
I am today.

Today I have a purpose in life. A purpose
to share my own experiences. strengths
and hopes with the next suffering
alcoholic. A purpose to finally in all
my life to be true and honest with
myself and others.

I will continue to practice the principles
in all my affairs TODAY for as long as
my HP allows me to.

And for that I am truely grateful.

Thanks for letting me share.
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