hate me...
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Join Date: Apr 2007
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hate me...
I wish someone would :camper: me away
Kick me
slap me, wake me up..i'm a bloody zombie..I don't even have the energy to clean, that's not me...THIS ISN'T ME. I HATE ME SO MUCH I HATE IT. I'M NOT ALLOWED TO DRINK BECAUSE OF MY TABLETS I'M NOT ALLOWED TO LIVE BECAUSE OF THE STUPID DEPRESSION, THE STUPID PAST. I HATE IT. I HATE IT.
Kick me
slap me, wake me up..i'm a bloody zombie..I don't even have the energy to clean, that's not me...THIS ISN'T ME. I HATE ME SO MUCH I HATE IT. I'M NOT ALLOWED TO DRINK BECAUSE OF MY TABLETS I'M NOT ALLOWED TO LIVE BECAUSE OF THE STUPID DEPRESSION, THE STUPID PAST. I HATE IT. I HATE IT.
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Join Date: Feb 2007
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Dear Lost Child,
Please try to change your way of thinking...There MUST be something positive in your life...It will not help you to only think of the negative aspects of your life...It will only cause you to sink deeper into depression...
Thinking of you...
Please try to change your way of thinking...There MUST be something positive in your life...It will not help you to only think of the negative aspects of your life...It will only cause you to sink deeper into depression...
Thinking of you...
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Europe
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That's the depression's job to get you as low as it can. Will you let her win?.......
I believe you love you and because a part of you wants to glow, the other wants to assure you don't do that. If there's one thing i know is you're worth it, amazing, because newsflash: God doesn't make crap! And the past is nothing compared to what you can do in the future...I believe so much in your abilities. I believe when you are out of the woods you won't see the dark behind, you will see the light ahead...
I can't hug you, but i would if you were next to me......my hand is on the screen, reach out.....
I believe you love you and because a part of you wants to glow, the other wants to assure you don't do that. If there's one thing i know is you're worth it, amazing, because newsflash: God doesn't make crap! And the past is nothing compared to what you can do in the future...I believe so much in your abilities. I believe when you are out of the woods you won't see the dark behind, you will see the light ahead...
I can't hug you, but i would if you were next to me......my hand is on the screen, reach out.....
JUST DO IT!!
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Pretty simple for complicated people. I heard once that you can not have a attitude of Gratitude and be in self pity at the same time. This is true as far as I am concerned. How do we change our attitudes...it is the old back dog and white dog effects.
We each have two sides, the black dog (which is negative) and the white dog (which is positive). the one that grows the most is the one that we feed. When I start thinking that ******** that is when I try and change my thinking and maybe even saying, "God, don't let me think like that!"
Life isn't easy and it isn't always going to be pleasant. That wouldn't be reality. That is our problem is that we never could live life in reality, we always had to live a life that was filled with fantasys. or at least that is my opinion.
Through working the steps, getting and using a sponsor, going to meetings, reading the literature, and not using no matter what I haven't had to take a drug (alcohol is a drug) since May 25, 2006 and for that I am eternally grateful.
Sometimes we need to take responsibilities for our life. It says in the NA Basic Text, either we grow up or we die. The choice is ours.
With Love and Respect
Vic
We each have two sides, the black dog (which is negative) and the white dog (which is positive). the one that grows the most is the one that we feed. When I start thinking that ******** that is when I try and change my thinking and maybe even saying, "God, don't let me think like that!"
Life isn't easy and it isn't always going to be pleasant. That wouldn't be reality. That is our problem is that we never could live life in reality, we always had to live a life that was filled with fantasys. or at least that is my opinion.
Through working the steps, getting and using a sponsor, going to meetings, reading the literature, and not using no matter what I haven't had to take a drug (alcohol is a drug) since May 25, 2006 and for that I am eternally grateful.
Sometimes we need to take responsibilities for our life. It says in the NA Basic Text, either we grow up or we die. The choice is ours.
With Love and Respect
Vic
Determined
Join Date: May 2007
Location: On the verge of insanity
Posts: 330
Hows things now Lost?
Am I right in thinking you have to see your nurse again today? Let us know how that goes.
The sun will rise tomorrow, the world will still be turning tomorrow, even the birds will sing tomorrow and maybe the rain will fall, but hope and beauty can be found in all these things,, and that day is not far away for you, you know the day where you WILL see the sun, smell the rain or hear the birds again.
Hang on, ts just around that corner, you know that corner, the one thats real dark , you're almost there, just keep trudging on around that corner. "Keep right on to the end of that road!!"
Let us know how you go today
Hugs
Am I right in thinking you have to see your nurse again today? Let us know how that goes.
The sun will rise tomorrow, the world will still be turning tomorrow, even the birds will sing tomorrow and maybe the rain will fall, but hope and beauty can be found in all these things,, and that day is not far away for you, you know the day where you WILL see the sun, smell the rain or hear the birds again.
Hang on, ts just around that corner, you know that corner, the one thats real dark , you're almost there, just keep trudging on around that corner. "Keep right on to the end of that road!!"
Let us know how you go today
Hugs
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