Fade

Aside from all the good folks on this board, and the support you all give...I talked to my boss again today, who has been a friend of mine for years about what has been going on, and what steps I've taken to resolve my problem with alcoholism. He was completely supportive, and told me to take as much time as I need. He also inquired as to who in my family I have talked about this with, and offered his own help if I needed to talk. Thats a friend right there.

Even though I caved yesterday, today is a new one, and I'm going to try again.

Cynay

Welcome to Day One....

Sounds like you have people that love ya and are pulling for you. All you have to do is stay sober today..

Fade

I am only beginning to learn the definition of "one day at a time"...I just never knew it was going to be this difficult. One day seems like an eternity right now, but I REFUSE to give up.

Tazman53

Fade what type of program are you working to get and stay sober?

Getting sober is easy.... staying sober is hard, staying sober without a program is darn near impossible.

Lollipop

Good Morning Fade, Welcome to the boards!!!

Sounds like you have a great support system which is awesome!!! Stay strong, keep posting!!!

Liss

Fade

Well, for right now, I'm just laying low dealing with the withdrawal symptoms. I'm a cross addicted alcohol/Xanax abuser. I've spoken with my doctor about a taper off program from the Xanax, and as soon as I can get some piece of mind, I need to attend meetings. I've been recommended to attend an Intensive Outpatient Program, which involves 20 sessions over a 5 week period of time.

I'm not sure if I can dedicate that kind of time, but I am certainly going to try. I'm scared to go to meetings, but I may have to swallow my pride here.

Rowan

Thanks for the inspiring post, Fade. You've got a lot of support in your corner, and you can do this.

Rowan

SaTiT

I couldn't imagain not drinking again for the rest of
my life...just for today I can probably stop

All we have it today, that's all we'll ever have.
Every time I open my eyes, it's always in the now.
When tommorow gets here..if it dose..
It's going to be in the now.
We've always lived oneday at a time. There was no
other way. That just the simple truth.
I guess I had to sober up to figure that out too.

I heard this once in a meeting.
"you can start your day over again anytime you want"
mmm..I wish someone would had told me that earlier
in life. A wonderful living tools.
So..I decided to just have 1/2 bad and 1/2 good days.
I'm a slow learner...lol
A month later, I decided to just have 1 hr bad and the rest
of the day a good day.
A month later, I decide to just have a bad moment
and the rest of the day was good.

Come to think of it. The stuff spining in my head
about tommorrow or yesterday..it's all in my head.
If I get too lost in it...I'm not experince the current
moment of the now...mmm reality, life.
Funny how my worries disapear when I'm living in the
moment.

Lbad

Don't wait.
Meetings (any kind AA, NA or outpatient tx center etc...) will help you with piece of mind. If you are sitting at home waiting for abstinence to give you some piece of mind you could very well be waiting a long long time.

Good luck and Good thoughts coming your way...