Today will be 4 days
Gretchen2733
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Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: Dallas GA
Posts: 1
Today will be 4 days
I have never made it past 2 days. I woke up Sunday morning after yet another night of heavy drinking , and decided enough is enough. I could barely feed myself due to the excessive shaking . I do not remember Saturday night. I know that I did and said some hurtful things and generally made a jerk out of myself .. typical ....
For the past 3 years I have lived my life buzzed , drunk or hungover. I am always tired, I take diet pills because they clear my head on the hungover days , yet I have gained nearly 50 pounds in the past 3 years . This is partly due to all the parties , the margarita meetings with all my drunk friends , the beer and vodka that I am ALWAYS drinking as soon as I get home from work. Both of my "drunk" friends have received DUI's within 2 weeks of each other . I know I was next if I did not stop.
I can trace nearly every problem I have back to alcohol. On Sunday I made the decision to quit, on Monday I poured every bit of alcohol down the drain. On Tuesday I informed my family and friends and asked for their support. Today I am joining this group.
Some of the posts I have read are scarily similiar to my life.
Alcohol is nothing more than a demon in a bottle waiting to be poured into your soul so that it can consume and destroy you. I am done letting it destroy me. I want the woman I used to be back . I have not had alcohol in my body for 4 days now including today. Already I feel better, have more energy, a better attitude, a clear head.. I know I am going to be okay!
I know this will be a forever battle , I want to drink right now , I have talked to people who have quit drinking over 3 years and still want a drink.
I am not going to let it get me again.
For the past 3 years I have lived my life buzzed , drunk or hungover. I am always tired, I take diet pills because they clear my head on the hungover days , yet I have gained nearly 50 pounds in the past 3 years . This is partly due to all the parties , the margarita meetings with all my drunk friends , the beer and vodka that I am ALWAYS drinking as soon as I get home from work. Both of my "drunk" friends have received DUI's within 2 weeks of each other . I know I was next if I did not stop.
I can trace nearly every problem I have back to alcohol. On Sunday I made the decision to quit, on Monday I poured every bit of alcohol down the drain. On Tuesday I informed my family and friends and asked for their support. Today I am joining this group.
Some of the posts I have read are scarily similiar to my life.
Alcohol is nothing more than a demon in a bottle waiting to be poured into your soul so that it can consume and destroy you. I am done letting it destroy me. I want the woman I used to be back . I have not had alcohol in my body for 4 days now including today. Already I feel better, have more energy, a better attitude, a clear head.. I know I am going to be okay!
I know this will be a forever battle , I want to drink right now , I have talked to people who have quit drinking over 3 years and still want a drink.
I am not going to let it get me again.
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Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: Boston, MA
Posts: 173
Welcome...thanks for your post.
For me, alcohol is poison to my body. It does things to me that it does not to a "normal" social drinker. I can not take one sip of alcohol without it triggering a complusion to drink more. The results.. never good. Over the years I never learned how to cope and deal with life. Whenever something happened in my life that I did not like... whether it was ppl, places, things of feelings.. I drank to attempt to ignore rather than cope. So for me, my problem is a two-fold problem... physical (after I take that first sip) and mental (the way I'm thinking that leads me to that first drink.)..
I can relate to alot of what you wrote, and I was severly bloated from so much alcohol. Once I quit, that weight came off.. my skin looked better.. I felt better.. and looked healthier. But then that time came when something went wrong in my life, or when I felt really good.. that I almost believed the lie that I could drink like normal people or that my problem or life would get better from taking a drink. I didn't take that drink.. one day at a time.. because I learned about my problem and found a program of action and recovery against my seriously demented thinking. Some days are better/easier than others. But I try to implement the tools I have learned as a defense against that first drink.
Today, my life is good. Not always fantastic.. not always bad. But good. Living a sober life is WAAAAY better than any life I could have lived in that horrible state of hopelessness and despair... all the while never even knowing I actually had a problem. Once I actually took the time to learn about my problem.. I had to get honest with myself. As a result of staying away from that first drink and having a program of recovery I DO NOT have a desire to drink today. And that, in itself, is a miracle and blessing that I could never even have fathomed. So today, it makes my life GOOD... no matter what happens on the outside...
Anna
For me, alcohol is poison to my body. It does things to me that it does not to a "normal" social drinker. I can not take one sip of alcohol without it triggering a complusion to drink more. The results.. never good. Over the years I never learned how to cope and deal with life. Whenever something happened in my life that I did not like... whether it was ppl, places, things of feelings.. I drank to attempt to ignore rather than cope. So for me, my problem is a two-fold problem... physical (after I take that first sip) and mental (the way I'm thinking that leads me to that first drink.)..
I can relate to alot of what you wrote, and I was severly bloated from so much alcohol. Once I quit, that weight came off.. my skin looked better.. I felt better.. and looked healthier. But then that time came when something went wrong in my life, or when I felt really good.. that I almost believed the lie that I could drink like normal people or that my problem or life would get better from taking a drink. I didn't take that drink.. one day at a time.. because I learned about my problem and found a program of action and recovery against my seriously demented thinking. Some days are better/easier than others. But I try to implement the tools I have learned as a defense against that first drink.
Today, my life is good. Not always fantastic.. not always bad. But good. Living a sober life is WAAAAY better than any life I could have lived in that horrible state of hopelessness and despair... all the while never even knowing I actually had a problem. Once I actually took the time to learn about my problem.. I had to get honest with myself. As a result of staying away from that first drink and having a program of recovery I DO NOT have a desire to drink today. And that, in itself, is a miracle and blessing that I could never even have fathomed. So today, it makes my life GOOD... no matter what happens on the outside...
Anna
Have you tried AA? There are some good meetings in Douglasville. I used to live there.
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