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I'm up down all over the place. also im completely off all mental health meds with doctors approval. I couldn't feel my feelings when I first got sober because of meds blocking them. I'm stable but down. I'm hopfull but realize how big a deal using is. I've come the conclusion I wasn't complety sure I was an addict/alcohol when I got sober but I sure now. I fully got step one and fully convinced to my inmost self that I'm an addict alcohol. I'm also fully committed to sharing how I feel because I need to let people help me. I learned a lot from this slip. last I think I was a dry drunk for a long time because I've been very sad and anxious for a very long time I just didn't realize it. my room is a disaster not because of I'm tired but because I'm depressed.

David

Dee74

I'm glad you're sure now David

Disaster rooms are always just a few hours away from being clean rooms - you've got this

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D122y

I still suffer daily, but I am more used to it.

I see a therapist and it helps reassure me and gives me ideas to deal with all my mental issues.

Booze was definitely a medication that I used for years to deal with other issues.

Booze also made my issues worse.

Bottom line: I am an addict for life. Any decision to drink/use is a relapse.

Thanks.