Feel like I won the lottery
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Feel like I won the lottery
I'm feeling so much more hopeful about my life. Is my life easy right now no. I'm still feeling crummy a lot of evenings but I no longer want to drink since I started going to aa. My anxiety is bad but I can chose to rise above it. The paws is really bad but I'm not going to drink. Overall all I feel good. Anxiety is just a feeling it to shall pass. I feel different these day more self assured. I feel like I'm on a grand adventure.
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It feels really really good , when you know you mean it , literally never gets old , congrats!
The only gift my drinking ever gave me was when I knew I was done .
Keep truckin , Rootin for ya
The only gift my drinking ever gave me was when I knew I was done .
Keep truckin , Rootin for ya
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Originally Posted by 100 
I'm feeling so much more hopeful about my life. Is my life easy right now no. I'm still feeling crummy a lot of evenings but I no longer want to drink since I started going to aa. My anxiety is bad but I can chose to rise above it. The paws is really bad but I'm not going to drink. Overall all I feel good. Anxiety is just a feeling it to shall pass. I feel different these day more self assured. I feel like I'm on a grand adventure.
David
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Hell yes!!!
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Great 16 days today and tomorrow going for sober bike ride with fellow aa members. They do group group things every week . I still need to get a sponsor but I'm not sure who to ask. I'm trying to go to different meetings to come into contact with different people. I've been to 4 different meetings but I've gone every day for past 16 days. I'm so busy now it's werd whereas before I had nothing to do, it's a surreal feeling I almost have to pinch my self to make sure it's real. I never realized how much my drinking/using was effecting me physically and spiritualy. I say spiritual but not in religious way if that makes sense. I honestly have not had one significant craving in 16 day I've been involved in aa. I'm spending 4 hours a day at the sober club. I'm getting to know people. I feel like I belong somewhere for the first time in what feels like forever. I was saying to my self when are you going to wake up and I feel like I have woken up.
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Originally Posted by 100
I'm feeling so much more hopeful about my life. Is my life easy right now no. I'm still feeling crummy a lot of evenings but I no longer want to drink since I started going to aa. My anxiety is bad but I can chose to rise above it. The paws is really bad but I'm not going to drink. Overall all I feel good. Anxiety is just a feeling it to shall pass. I feel different these day more self assured. I feel like I'm on a grand adventure.
David
David
.Question - have you talked to a doctor at all about the PAWS symptoms? Things I was convinced were long-term alcohol withdrawal issues turned out to be unrelated auto-immune issues that required aggressive treatment. Now that I have doctors monitoring my bloodwork and I'm mostly in remission, my health anxiety (and anxiety in general) has dropped significantly. Even if it is PAWS, you'll have peace of mind knowing what it is and how to treat it.
For me, at least, that paralyzing anxiety was the my #1 cause of relapse. I had to go after the source.
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