Rockbottom1964

…and not the chances we take, determines our destiny. So they say. I believe it’s the same for how our lives turn out. The good thing is that no matter how final this old saying sounds, it is not. Not final. The choices we make – most of them, at least - are reversible. We ARE allowed to change them, to change our minds, to change our lives into something better. On the 12th of December, I chose to change the choices I made, and chose to be sober. Right now it’s still (very) early days, but I already feel great. I’ve started dreaming and planning again, instead of floundering in despair and slowly killing myself.
Today, I jogged/walked thirteen Km. My legs and my feet hurt, but it’s a good hurt – not the full-body hurt that alcohol gave me. And my head feels a lot clearer, not the stuffed with cotton, floating in limbo feel I used to have all the time. I’m tired but good-tired, not pass-out tired.
While I’m writing this, my dad – already drunk for a couple of hours (it’s only just gone 6Pm here), has started his garrulous arguing with my stepmom, who’s just as drunk. Every second slurred word a swearword, some unbelievably crude for a man almost 80 years old…. I have to get out of this hell-hole.
27 days sober and I don’t think the AV has bothered me even once today….

ScottFromWI

Congrats on 27 days Rockbottom! I agree, we all have a choice when it comes to our addiction. We can't undo whatever it is that makes us addicts, but we can choose to not let it control our lives.

Kaily

Walking to the point of tiredness is a great AV buster.

Well done on day 27.