Just bought my last pint....I enter detox this evening
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Just bought my last pint....I enter detox this evening
Well as a few of you have read and commented on my post about "medical detox". This evening I will be entering a medical detox for alcoholism and I will follow up with a faith based inpatient rehab here in Kentucky.
I have spent the the last month since my ER visit getting everything sorted and in order so that I could leave for treatment. I have paid my bills ahead,moved my apartment to storage and also attended some memorable family gatherings (graduations,birthdays and a funeral).
So today is the day!! This evening I will be signing myself into the medical detox and starting my journey into sobriety. I am scared and nervous!! I haven't been 24hrs sober in 3yrs and 7days sober in at least 10yrs.....holy ****? Where has my life been? How have I survived? Well by the grace of God I have another chance.
This attempt is all on my own and my own decision to quit!! No one is giving me a ultimatum.....I've given myself a ultimatum. Keep drinking and die or stop drinking and have a new lease on life.
I chose sobriety!!
This forum has really helped me throughout this last month. I hope to have many more months with you guys!!
As I drink what "hopefully" is my last ever pint of liquor all I can think about is the pain that it's caused myself and everyone around me. I'm going to miss the numbness or the disease. I however am not going to miss the countless years,months and days that I've given up due to the disease.
Chris
I have spent the the last month since my ER visit getting everything sorted and in order so that I could leave for treatment. I have paid my bills ahead,moved my apartment to storage and also attended some memorable family gatherings (graduations,birthdays and a funeral).
So today is the day!! This evening I will be signing myself into the medical detox and starting my journey into sobriety. I am scared and nervous!! I haven't been 24hrs sober in 3yrs and 7days sober in at least 10yrs.....holy ****? Where has my life been? How have I survived? Well by the grace of God I have another chance.
This attempt is all on my own and my own decision to quit!! No one is giving me a ultimatum.....I've given myself a ultimatum. Keep drinking and die or stop drinking and have a new lease on life.
I chose sobriety!!
This forum has really helped me throughout this last month. I hope to have many more months with you guys!!
As I drink what "hopefully" is my last ever pint of liquor all I can think about is the pain that it's caused myself and everyone around me. I'm going to miss the numbness or the disease. I however am not going to miss the countless years,months and days that I've given up due to the disease.
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scared and nervous- i think i can relate to that maybe. for me it was fear of the unknown- what life without alcohol would be like.
one thing that helped give me the courage to work on recovery is the fear of the known- what life WITH alcohol still in it would be like.
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Very proud of you! You haven't wavered an inch since you first posted about seeking inpatient detox. Sounds like your mind is made up and that's a good thing!
Like I said before...throw yourself into it. Soak it all up like a sponge. This is a wonderful gift you are giving yourself. Good luck and know that we are all cheering for you!
Like I said before...throw yourself into it. Soak it all up like a sponge. This is a wonderful gift you are giving yourself. Good luck and know that we are all cheering for you!
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Originally Posted by tomsteve 
scared and nervous- i think i can relate to that maybe. for me it was fear of the unknown- what life without alcohol would be like.
one thing that helped give me the courage to work on recovery is the fear of the known- what life WITH alcohol still in it would be like.
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csilvers....Congratulations! Fear not my friend, embrace the moment. You are giving yourself the chance for something better. How awesome that you have managed to arrive at this moment rationally and thoughtfully. Few people I know enter detox in this organized fashion and find all sorts of excuses to leave the program they need. You have tied up all the loose ends you need, and now you go discover the amazing parts of life you have been missing. Good luck and relax. One day at a time is really important now. There is nothing to fear in one sober day at a time. If that is too much, then focus on one sober moment at a time.
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Sending prayers your way! I'm so happy for you, as others have mentioned go in with an open mind. Kudos to you for wanting to do this, wanting and seeking help tells me you're serious and want to make changes to your life! I found out life was so much easier living a sober. nice work!! Wishing you the best!!
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