Freaking out
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Freaking out
I missed a meeting. Stayed home while fam went out especially so i could go to meeting, then missed it. Feeling awful.
If you place a gun in your first act, it should go off in the next. Every element should fit into the story, or its presence there is deceitful. I realise, since the beginning of this “story”, I have figured a relapse into it. And it’s making me nervous now.
There’s a meeting at 8 but I’m in London and I’m not sure when everyone will be back. I hate having to account for my absences. This, though, is what it will be like when I move back here. I’ll be jobless, have no money to go out and no reason to. I won’t have people to bump into in the library, or go for coffee with. I won’t have that support. That period, that little absence, is when I will relapse.
Can you scratch a gun out of a story?
Remove everything that has no relevance to the story. If you say in the first chapter that there is a rifle hanging on the wall, in the second or third chapter it absolutely must go off. If it’s not going to be fired, it shouldn’t be hanging there.
Anton Chekov
If you place a gun in your first act, it should go off in the next. Every element should fit into the story, or its presence there is deceitful. I realise, since the beginning of this “story”, I have figured a relapse into it. And it’s making me nervous now.
There’s a meeting at 8 but I’m in London and I’m not sure when everyone will be back. I hate having to account for my absences. This, though, is what it will be like when I move back here. I’ll be jobless, have no money to go out and no reason to. I won’t have people to bump into in the library, or go for coffee with. I won’t have that support. That period, that little absence, is when I will relapse.
Can you scratch a gun out of a story?
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We all get to write the script from here on in . . . in the past the endless cycle of drinking and hangovers almost seemed inevitable and that our fate had already been decided.
But the day we dug deep and built up enough courage to take a leap of faith into the unknown was the day we gained back the control of our own lives to decide what the ending of this new chapter looks like!!
But the day we dug deep and built up enough courage to take a leap of faith into the unknown was the day we gained back the control of our own lives to decide what the ending of this new chapter looks like!!
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Originally Posted by dollpart 
I realise, since the beginning of this “story”, I have figured a relapse into it. And it’s making me nervous now.
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Originally Posted by dollpart
Really need a drink right now.
One of the things my sponsor had me do when I was dying for a drink one night was think it through, in great detail. He asked me to tell him exactly what I wanted to do, what I wanted to drink, how that would feel, where I would go, and to tell him, in detail, the best case scenario I could imagine. Then he asked me what I really thought would happen. And then he told me to think through to going to bed, and waking up next morning. He asked then, how did I feel.
He also asked how I'd feel the next morning if I didn't drink.
Also, while it's not the best suggestion, or habit to get into, a huge ice cream sunday used to do the trick for me too in early sobriety. Takes the edge of the desire for sure.
Prayer helped me a lot too.
That's the best I have to offer right now. Hang in there.
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Can you scratch a gun out of a story?
if you're the one writing the story, yes, of course you can.
you can also write the story where "need" a drink doesn't compute.
need and want are not the same.
you might get some use out of this: http://lifering.org/wp-content/uploa...elapseCh11.pdf
(i esp. like the "termites" list in part six.)
keep going and it will change.
if you're the one writing the story, yes, of course you can.
you can also write the story where "need" a drink doesn't compute.
need and want are not the same.
you might get some use out of this: http://lifering.org/wp-content/uploa...elapseCh11.pdf
(i esp. like the "termites" list in part six.)
keep going and it will change.
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Originally Posted by Joe Nerv
Also, while it's not the best suggestion, or habit to get into, a huge ice cream sunday used to do the trick for me too in early sobriety. Takes the edge of the desire for sure.
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Originally Posted by fini
Can you scratch a gun out of a story?
if you're the one writing the story, yes, of course you can.
you can also write the story where "need" a drink doesn't compute.
need and want are not the same.
you might get some use out of this: http://lifering.org/wp-content/uploa...elapseCh11.pdf
(i esp. like the "termites" list in part six.)
keep going and it will change.
if you're the one writing the story, yes, of course you can.
you can also write the story where "need" a drink doesn't compute.
need and want are not the same.
you might get some use out of this: http://lifering.org/wp-content/uploa...elapseCh11.pdf
(i esp. like the "termites" list in part six.)
keep going and it will change.
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