onebear

I reached out on my own for help. I am going to weekly counseling and finally agreed to go on medication. Because I want to get better. Now I am being told that if I want to stay in treatment I must allow the clinic to administer my meds, daily and do a monthly ua. I agreed. 3 days in they forced me to do a breathalizer to continue. I know all this is to help me, but it feels so demoralizing, especially for the first time in my life I have been honest, now my honesty is being questioned. Help! I am close to saying screw this.

MemphisBlues

I think they are just trying to hold you accountable. Go with it. If you were an alcoholic and an addict like me, I lied. A lot.

It may be humiliating, but sometimes that is a necessary path to find humility and end the cycle of denial that keeps many of us drunk or stoned or both.

Just don't drink or drug and when you take a breathalyzer of pee in the cup just smile, knowing you will pass both.

BSwan09

I think Memphis is right. It may not be the most convenient or easiest thing to do, but achieving sobriety isn't either of those things!

SeaScape

It may be demoralizing but keep your eye on the prize....long lasting sobriety I admire you for being so brave and being honest...

onebear

Damn it, it feels like punishment for being honest, once again i want to get better, so i will come to grips with it. I am a counselor myself, and am probably more skeptical than most.

onebear

Thank you all! I know this is what I need to do, but I have spent my life questioning authority, and refusing help, always helping others, this time I need to help myself, whatever!

EndGameNYC

"Questioning authority" and "refusing help" sounds like a witches brew. Counselors, therapists and doctors often make the worst patients.

Accountability is important in treatment for recovery, as is ensuring your safety. That's two reasons why breathalyzers and UAs are administered. Charting and monitoring your progress is another.