Bluebird1927

35 days down the drain. Moved house, was tired, irritable, let myself down. Feeling pretty awful right now. I'm back though, sorry.

TigerLili

I am not sure success or failure is the right way to look at it. You moved 35 days in the right direction. That's 35 days you DIDN'T drink. Get back on the horse. You can do it. I think recovery is a work in progress, rather than a destination.

least

Get right back up and on the wagon. You know what to do so just do it.

KateL

Don't be sorry, just pick yourself up again. I moved last year and have never been so stressed in all my life. Forgive yourself and move on xxxxx

newme2day

Starting over again too!! We can do this!!

jdooner

relapse is part of the process - this is a journey about learning about yourself not just giving up the booze. Therefore these slips if they help provide resolve are parts of the process. You may want to rethink about what led to this - usually its not the things you mentioned and happens well in advance but that was just my experience. Perhaps adjusting your program.

IOAA2

Hi. As stated alcohol is part of the problem and many don't, for various reasons, usually fear, work on the reasons we drank and keep relapsing. I know all about it. Fears kept me captive for too long and I drank to escape them. After a drink or two my attitude changed to "I don't care" and lasted till I became fearful again. I needed some time to sober up and confront my triggers. Over the years most have been turned into manageable concerns because I don't drink any more and think of others as "how important is it" and manage from there.

BE WELL

soberhawk

Once again you toke on the fight Bluebird, that should make you feel good.

Tiptree

Well said. It is a process and everyone's journey will be different but we are all moving in the right direction even with setbacks. We learn and move on.

Sanantoniosober

We've all tried and failed at this before. If it were easy, there would be no need for places like this.

You don't fail at this until you quit trying.

Bluebird1927

Thanks everyone, feeling a bit better about my slip. Reassessed and I'll move on. Thank you for your advice, it's priceless at times like this

thisisme

Don't apologize.
Fall 8 times, get up 9 times.

tonigel

I agree with this 100% So long as you learn something new about your triggers then it is feedback, not failure!

Bluebird1927

This is a good point, the mental side of the hangover I can take to a point, what gets me is the physical, the spots, the bloat. I train five times a week at the gym and am body image conscious. I saw a rugby player on TV drinking, he was still in great shape, he lives a normal life, can I? Of course you can said the stupid alcoholic part of my brain, from that moment on I felt helpless to stop the inevitable drink

tonigel

Hi Bluebird, I think (I could be wrong) that IOAA2 was referring more to the emotional triggers that precede a relapse than the physical hangover effects.

Don't listen to that voice.

Bluebird1927

Yeah, emotionally I was feeling a little down, inadequate, I don't know. I think I let the stress of the house move get on top of me and felt I needed a reward.

The next time I see some triggers I'll have to adapt to deal with the situation, or never move home again ha ha

Joybot

That's 35 days without alcohol. You did great. Start over again. Never back down and don't stop fighting.

pleasehelpmeout

I just came back today as well after falling off the wagon for six months.

BUT. You are back. I am back. That's what matters. Change is today. Congratulations on going the 35 days. You can do it again.

Shamrocks

Welcome back! You can do this.

Bluebird1927

Thanks everyone, my resolve is back today. Feeling better, let's start again