Quinne

Hey gang,

It's been while since i've posted, but at the moment, I really feel like i'm combating feeling alone and loneliness; i've been sober 15 months and find it difficult to connect and keep dates with friends due to ongoing sleep problems/fatigue (I have a sleep study scheduled for9 days from now) and literally have very little time for interests outside AA, work and my partner as it is. I think the key "issue" here is that I have few friends my age outside the rooms and being in my mid-20s, i'm either missing out, or at the very least, that's what my disease wants me to think because the reality is very different. Loneliness has not been something that has come up until now-i've put in action and let others in the fellowship know how i'm feeling, contacted close highschool friends to let them know i'm thinking about themand my silly, silly ego says people simply must know that i'm liked enough to have loads of good friends! 0_o This came up again yesterday after I had to cancel on my cmy nearest and dearest gf due to being absolutely run-down and worn out-she seemed to understand, but even though she has cancelled on me heaps in recent times, i'm worried that part of me is taking advantage of her good will :/

Thoughts and similar experiences please?!

Thanks all

Xx

Michael66

Hi Quinne

I sympathise with the sleep problems. It's 1.25am here. I'm about the same time sober and I'm still having sleep problems sometimes which is leaving me tired. I'm OK most of the time now, but it's a bit on/off. I guess I know I shouldn't be on the internet, as one thing I have read is that its best to avoid computer screens and smartphone for 2 hours before you go to bed. When I stick to that my sleep definitely is better (as it is when I totally avoid caffeine in the day).

Anyway, sorry that you are tired and feeling a bit down at the moment. You are in my prayers even if I can;t do anything practical to help you.

God bless +

Michael

dox

I sometimes feel the same: little time outside AA and family for friends.
Then again, I have always been pretty much of a loner.

Quinne, how is your prayer and meditation life?

When I accepted my Higher Power, I realised that I am never truly alone.
We have developed a personal relationship.
Happy to just be with Him and me.
So, I no longer feel lonely.

Dee74

Hi Quinne - good to see you again

I think it's very hard to analyse things when you're sleep deprived - and our addiction loves us vulnerable.

I hope the sleep study will help - you may find a different perspective in a few weeks?

D

IOAA2

Hi. When I first went to AA there were some meetings I just didn’t seem to fit for various reasons. Fortunately there were sufficient meetings around to choose from where I felt more comfortable. Interestingly as time passed I went back and things had changed (me) and I was comfortable there as well. People are generally the same reserved depending on where we go and I found that if I got out of MY shell and put out my hand things seemed more friendly. Often people will leave us alone in our privacy unless we open up a bit.

Quinne

Thank you all for your support!

dox, you raise a very relevant point-I absolutely do have a Higher Power in my life, but there are two default "settings" (if you will) that seem to make it very difficult to make conscious contact-those are being physically sick and being tired. I pray every morning and meditation seems to come when it comes, although I do sit/stand still and listen for direction frequently and often in odd places :P

I hope so too, Dee-with the combination of symptoms, the specialist was leaning heavily toward some degree of narcolepsy :/ I'm also getting my thyroid checked out this week, too On the plus side, it's a wonderful thing to care enough about my health to take some action