My Biggest Fear
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My Biggest Fear
Hi Everyone,
I am new here. Sober for 7 days. I joined this forum because for the first time in my life I have decided on abstinence as my goal instead of cutting back my drinking. My biggest fear is that the longer I am sober, the more I will convince myself that I can control my drinking. I hope that reading about the experiences of other forum members will keep me from kidding myself.
I am new here. Sober for 7 days. I joined this forum because for the first time in my life I have decided on abstinence as my goal instead of cutting back my drinking. My biggest fear is that the longer I am sober, the more I will convince myself that I can control my drinking. I hope that reading about the experiences of other forum members will keep me from kidding myself.
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Heh-heh. I've been down that road many times. Always ended up in the ditch (metaphorically). I might "control" it for a few days, but I'd soon be back to downing the stuff until drunkeness.
I lost track of how many times that has happened over the years.
In other words, the hooch controls me, not t'other way around...
I lost track of how many times that has happened over the years.
In other words, the hooch controls me, not t'other way around...
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Hi and welcome GroundhogDay 
Nothing keeps me more grounded than coming here to SR.
But, as time goes on, I hope you'll decide you want to be sober above all else - you won't need to guard against relapse because it will cease to be an option
D
Nothing keeps me more grounded than coming here to SR.
But, as time goes on, I hope you'll decide you want to be sober above all else - you won't need to guard against relapse because it will cease to be an option
D
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Welcome GroundhogDay...I just joined yesterday. BTW I love the name because my drinking days were like the movie.
I got sober in 1990 and stayed sober for 7 years. I started drinking again and a year later I went back to AA with my tail between my legs. I stayed sober for another 7 years. I started drinking again and I am now 20 days sober after 7 years of drinking. Both times when I started drinking again I thought I could control it but that was not the case. Maybe for a week...maybe for a month...but each time I went back to drinking heavily with the same problems I had before.
So in my case it didn't matter if I had 7 weeks or 7 years of sobriety, once I started drinking again I ended up in the same bad place. Alcoholism is an incurable disease, but you can live a long happy life with it if you treat the disease. I have experienced living a sober and happy life, but I have also thrown that life aside twice because I stopped treating the disease. Luckily I am stubborn enough not to give up and try again.
I got sober in 1990 and stayed sober for 7 years. I started drinking again and a year later I went back to AA with my tail between my legs. I stayed sober for another 7 years. I started drinking again and I am now 20 days sober after 7 years of drinking. Both times when I started drinking again I thought I could control it but that was not the case. Maybe for a week...maybe for a month...but each time I went back to drinking heavily with the same problems I had before.
So in my case it didn't matter if I had 7 weeks or 7 years of sobriety, once I started drinking again I ended up in the same bad place. Alcoholism is an incurable disease, but you can live a long happy life with it if you treat the disease. I have experienced living a sober and happy life, but I have also thrown that life aside twice because I stopped treating the disease. Luckily I am stubborn enough not to give up and try again.
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Pleased to meet you, GroundhogDay! Very wise of you to be concerned about that. Knowing it's a possibility will be valuable to you - some are totally unprepared. SR will help you through this time of change in your life - we all understand.
Congratulations on your 7 days! That is great news.
Congratulations on your 7 days! That is great news.
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Hey buddy way to go on 7 days! I have about 10 weeks and what reminds me the most is this one and simple truth, u will NEVER be able to control ur drinking. Its just that simple. Its been proven over and over again. And it only gets worse. So SURRENDER is the key here. I read this quote somewhere.....total abstinence is easier to maintain than perfect moderation.....once you understand that you can move on with ur life. Alcoholism sucs, dont let it convince you otherwise!
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I am working hard on the underlying core issues and have a strong support group (not AA, but similar in spirit). What puzzles me is that I seem to want to drink just as much when I feel great as when I am upset. Anything out of the ordinary makes me anxious. Is that weird? Positive change makes me anxious?!
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Originally Posted by GroundhogDay 
Anything out of the ordinary makes me anxious. Is that weird? Positive change makes me anxious?!
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