Odd dream
Odd dream
I cannot shake a feeling of calm peacefulness this morning. i have had it ever since getting up.
I am one of those people open to the idea that there is more out there than meets the eye. I am also someone who remembers my dreams vividly. I can go back to sleep if I wake and continue the dream. That happened to me all last night. I got 10 hours sleep and it was a long long night.
I have heard many times that those who have passed can visit us in dreams. I have rules. Most everyone that knows me knows I don't like drop overs. Call first!
I was back at my childhood home. A place where my drunk abusive step father and I lived out some pretty intense stuff. Well guess who showed up last night? I found myself in the dream hiding in the house from him. The place was a mess of course. But there was remodeling going on. A complete makeover. A sign? Hmmmmm.
He kept looking for me and I kept hiding until we met up. And he was kind and warm. I was suspicious.
There wasn't a dialog per se.... Just a overwhelming feeling of love and forgiveness. He gave me a big long hug that I can actually remember feeling. Like it was real.
All morning I have felt odd. It won't leave me, this feeling of calm and peacefulness.
I don't pretend that anything is real beyond my dream. I guess I am just going to enjoy this while it lasts. But I feel like from one alcoholic to another he wanted to tell me it will get better.
Anyway I look at it I will have a good sober Wednesday. I have my liver tests tomorrow. We shall see the results in a few days.
I am one of those people open to the idea that there is more out there than meets the eye. I am also someone who remembers my dreams vividly. I can go back to sleep if I wake and continue the dream. That happened to me all last night. I got 10 hours sleep and it was a long long night.
I have heard many times that those who have passed can visit us in dreams. I have rules. Most everyone that knows me knows I don't like drop overs. Call first!
I was back at my childhood home. A place where my drunk abusive step father and I lived out some pretty intense stuff. Well guess who showed up last night? I found myself in the dream hiding in the house from him. The place was a mess of course. But there was remodeling going on. A complete makeover. A sign? Hmmmmm.
He kept looking for me and I kept hiding until we met up. And he was kind and warm. I was suspicious.
There wasn't a dialog per se.... Just a overwhelming feeling of love and forgiveness. He gave me a big long hug that I can actually remember feeling. Like it was real.
All morning I have felt odd. It won't leave me, this feeling of calm and peacefulness.
I don't pretend that anything is real beyond my dream. I guess I am just going to enjoy this while it lasts. But I feel like from one alcoholic to another he wanted to tell me it will get better.
Anyway I look at it I will have a good sober Wednesday. I have my liver tests tomorrow. We shall see the results in a few days.
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