Long night of waiting
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Long night of waiting
Finally went to see my doctor today and got the liver function test run. Now, it's a long night of waiting. BUT, once it is over, I will be relieved... and I will work through the weekend, and yes, continue to drink in the evenings. Then Monday morning, 8 a.m., I will go to the chemical dependency center as scheduled.
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I feel like my feelings about alcohol are starting to change already. Sorry if that sounds dumb, but I was trying to compare it to smoking (another addiction I've battled) today. I NEVER look at other smokers anymore and think, wow, that looks so cool. I never envy them for their ability to have a cigarette. I smell it on someone else and I think it's nasty, pure and simple, and glad I am not doing it.
There are definitely times I want a smoke. But that momentary craving never replaces the feeling that I so much better and happier off without it, ever.
Hope to get there someday with the booze, too.
There are definitely times I want a smoke. But that momentary craving never replaces the feeling that I so much better and happier off without it, ever.
Hope to get there someday with the booze, too.
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Ha, maybe I should just make this thread a blog. It's starting to feel like an online diary!
I DO almost feel that way about booze. It's strange how it starts to stand out so much. I feel like something clicked recently and I am not sure what. Still, I am too scared of physical aftershocks to do this on my own, so I will be patient with it for a few more days.
I DO almost feel that way about booze. It's strange how it starts to stand out so much. I feel like something clicked recently and I am not sure what. Still, I am too scared of physical aftershocks to do this on my own, so I will be patient with it for a few more days.
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Vespera I am sober for the longest ever right now (aside from when I was pregnant) after many tries at quitting. I too had something "click" this time... I totally get what you mean. I just KNEW that I meant business this time around. I hate alcohol now. I don't crave it. It disgusts me. I pity people who rely on it even socially. I hope these feelings never go away, and I hope you are having the same "click" that I had. Good luck!
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