Sudz No More

As most of you know, I have documented in detail my struggles with mental obsession to beer. When these impulses hit I almost always get a vision of the future and how I will react in the moment. These are quick flash brain patterns that frequently happen without any thought process. The images I get are always bad, giving in happily and drinking at some yet to be determined moment.

Yesterday I got one of these and to my surprise it ended good. It shocked me...

I stood there dumbfounded for a few seconds and then analyzed the moment. I actually had a small breakthrough with my brain patterns. I had visualized doing all the things I enjoy doing when I don't drink and I how I enjoy them. It was a first for me, in the two and a half years I have been working at sobriety these visions never ended well.

Finally, maybe there is light at the end of this very long and dark tunnel.

Today I had my usual compulsive cravings on the way home, I stared ahead towards the light and didn't look back...

To another sober day to all of you