Lionne

I haven't been writing/commenting a lot on the forum for the past few months but have been reading posts. Everything was really busy, but also going really well in my life at this point. I was just in the process of finally finishing my university degree, I have a really loving and supportive boyfriend, I'm still sober for over two and a half years and I made a lot of progress.

I just found out two weeks ago that I have an incurable disease. It's not fatal, but progressive and it it will have some serious effects on my life. It's pretty much something that I have to deal with on a one day at a time basis. It is absolutely unrelated to alcoholism and I didn't do anything that contributed to cause it. I had to deal with childhood abuse/trauma, depression and alcoholism, and now I'll have to face this too. And I will do the best I can.

What I'm trying to say is that life can deal you a rough enough hand even without adding alcohol to the equation. Everything in life can change so quickly and every minute you spend drunk and despaired and miserable is not worth it. I am really, really glad that I am sober and I don't have to deal with my illness whilst still in the throes of alcoholism. I think being an alcoholic in recovery an having managed to deal with a lot emotional turmoil has made me better at dealing with crises. I probably wouldn't be able to deal so well with this new situation if it weren't for my battle scars.
It's strange but there is some kind of radical acceptance there: So this is my life. It's not evenabou stuff like god's will, or fate, this is just simply what I get. This is what I'll have to deal with. And I'm ok with it, I'll do it. And I still can enjoy things and it will be ok within the possibilities I have.
I hope you all have a good day, and whatever you'll have to deal with today, just hold on and don't give up. All the crap and challenges life throws at you isn't worth looking solace at the bottom of the bottle. Life, no matter what else happens, is better without alcohol. Peace, Lionne

Dee74

I'm really sorry to hear this Lionne, but I know well enough to know that after some adjustment, you'll take this in your stride

I figure I really should be dead with what's happened to me and what I did to myself - every new morning is a bonus

I wish you the very best - & a personal thanks from me for a wonderful, inspiring post

D

NewBeginning010

Hi Lionne,

Sorry to hear about your new challenge but happy to hear that you are sober & able to deal with it as best you can. It sounds like a lot of things are going well for you in other areas.

Take care & all of the best ~ NB

doggonecarl

Thank you for showing us how we can handle the challenges that life throws our way.