Scrubmuncher

Some of you might have followed my story. Well I arrived back in the UK, I have been feeling really unstable since arriving back, the doctor primarily sent me to see a specialist to talk about my mind games. I have told him everything which is not easy for me. By the end of the session the specialist had decided that I should be taken into a unit, the local nut house to see if they could work on my thought process and stop my mind trying to destroy me, my paranoia and my imaginary thoughts that aren't really happening. He said while I am so mixed up they could not allow me into a rehab with other people, I need to get control of my mind before I can face anything else.
So my worst fears are recognized, 25 years of serious drink and drug abuse and I have eventually drank myself insane, I wish it was a joke but this is so scarey and very serious. I gave up giving up 15 years ago, now I have scarred myself so much through the drink that I am terrified of what my future holds for me. Will this get better or have I gone too far and am destined to not being able to process thought properly.
Give it up people, you don't want to end up in my shoes, it is terrifying.

Dee74

I'm glad you're back in the UK scrub - sad to see you're still drinking tho.
I know things are scary but drinkings not helping - it's making things worse.

I'm a little confused too - are you going to the secure unit now or not?

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BASEjumper

Your post seems pretty coherent to me. I'd guess if you can actually get sober you'll be okay. Some of the mental stuff will go away when you're off the drugs and booze and whatever's left you can get treatment for.

Glad you're back home good luck. Go into the unit and do whatever they tell you to do. Let them take it out of your hands for a while.

Scrubmuncher

Yes, I have until tuesday or they are going to section me. Thanks for the thoughts

Dee74

I'd accept the help, Scrub - go with it.

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least

I hope you can get the help you need before you become a sad statistic.

SSIL75

Take the help!

LotusBlossom

Take it while you still can and run with it. Unless you want to end up in the dirt in a few years.

being a realist here.

I wish you the best. =/. I am very jealous of your public (even if convoluted) health care system there.

LifeBlows

I'm so glad to hear that you have managed to make it back to the UK. That is fantastic! I know it may not seem like it now but it is a huge accomplishment. You managed to keep it together long enough to move to another country. Now the next step is just to get the help. Everyone is a bit crazy by the time they need to stop drinking so don't take it too much to heart.

Justfor1

Scrub, I relate to your situation. I believe that after a decade of drinking/drugging I have done permanent damage to my mental health. I know that if I continue to drink it will get worse though.