rr423

im pretty sick of being a drunk a few months in a row now worse than ever 12-20 beers a night, drinking till 10am.... 2 lazy to walk to the toilet so i **** in the cans... its out of hand... today is my first day well maybe not technically but its my first night... iv been sober since the am.... hoping i can do it and hoping the withdrawals wont be too horrid... scared about it but im more scared to be drunk... longest iv made it sober is 38 days i wanna make it a lot longer this time... just need the support.

Thanks and i appreciate if you took the time to read this.

left4lonely

for sharing You can do it!!!

:ghug3

Dee74

hi again rr

Glad you're back

Sorry I forget - did you ever use anything else but SR?
Sometimes I think it takes a little real life help too?.

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rr423

i havent at all i would be willing to try idk if aa is my cup of tea but i could try it

Chakra

Hey! This IS real live help.....even if I am replying to Oscar the Grouch. lol

Hi rr! Glad you are here! Hang in there!!!

Dee74

SR's been enough for me Chakra - and for others too...but sometimes many folks here have found they needed more face to face stuff - whether that be a recovery group like AA, SMART, LifeRing etc or some kind of counselling or rehab.

I don't know everyones story but I wouldn't be giving good advice if I didn't point that out

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Chakra

Oh I know. I think I picked the wrong time to try and be a comedian. I totally believe that people should get support wherever they can comfortably get it.

CarolD

Welcome back.....

Hope your de tox goes smoothly.
Don't hesitate to get medical assistance
because it's risky to do it alone.

rr423

what kind of medical options would make it easier? i just dont wanna fail

CarolD

There are med's to ease withdrawals ....that might be
necessary. If you live in the U.S. you can go to
an ER or call 911 for assistance.

Please read this link about the dangers of de toxing

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html

Not certain of other countries services.
I don't jbiw where you live.
Call your doctor for help.

rr423

thanks so much reading now.. in the times i have stopped i get bad headaches sweats. i curse at people and things lol... i sit and eat icecream lol i feel depressed nothing too horrible but bad enough

lildawg

I did those things when I quit. I had headaches (still have those), shakes, sweats. I remember, at one point, watching sweat drip off the palms of my hands. If you're sweating a whole lot, be sure to stay hydrated (not with booze). I was angry and had actual tantrums where I screamed and threw stuff. I had terrible, gut-wrenching anxiety. And I was depressed. God help me, I was so depressed.

I wish I had kept a journal of all this stuff. The memory of it is one of the things I use to keep myself sober. See, I know if I go back out I'm going to have to do all this stuff again . . . or die a drunk.

I sure hope you find something that works for you, and I'm cheering for you to stay sober.

penny74

Detoxing is not nice.
l thought it was living through hell.
Have done it more than a few times and it gets worse every time.
The worst thing about it is knowing that a few drinks will make it go away.
Could never do it without benzo's to keep the worse fears and shakes away.
My honest advice to you is to go to a doctor and tell him/her you wan't to stop and ask for something to help you through the first 4 days.
Good luck

Opivotal

I agree with everyone above. I think a Doctor's visit will help you get through the first week or so. I know you've been struggling and getting some help will make your recovery a little easier. Hang in there rr, you'll feel much better than you do now. Maybe check out AA or whatever support group works for you.

Best Wishes

BullDog777

a less expensive option than the ER or 911 would be to call an immediate care center you see all the time around towns that treat people with colds and flu and such and see if they treat alcohol withdrawal.

most places do, some don't which is why you should call first.

however, be careful. leaning on that crutch to make detoxing easier led me to abuse alcohol longer because detoxing was no longer dangerous. then i began abusing those same drugs and got addicted to them. in the end i had to detox from both at the same time and it almost took my life.

good luck to you, and best wishes.

artsoul

Hi rr - hope you're doing a little better today..... As penny said, it gets worse everytime we have to go through this, so don't mess around if you think you need a doctor's help.
I scared myself into sobriety, too. I could sense that the next stop was liver damage and letting go of every bit of self-care, financial ruin, etc......

I started really facing all the things alcohol would do to me if I kept drinking, and I guess it finally sunk in. There are so many possible (and horrible) scenarios, I knew it would be impossible to begin to write them all down.

Amazing what we're willing to sacrifice to our addiction (like peeing in a can - that's a good one)!

Hang in there and keep posting.