dipso

Yup.
Happened last night...third DUI.

Came home to wife filing for a separation. And we have a 2.5 yr. old.
No stranger here to the 12 step thing, I am pre-emptively enrolling in an in-patient treatment facility, a local outpatient facility, asked someone to be my sponsor today, and will try and document 90 in 90.

I am screwed here in Wyoming.

I need to change.
Want to change!
(have been compulsively unable to change)

Just sharing my thoughts.

more to come.

This sucks.

And I deserve all of it.

Snarf

Dipso, I racked up #2 the other night, and came home to my fiancee (7 years together) saying she wants me gone, and we're done.

I think I found bottom. I never got past Step 1 before, but I had that moment where I suddenly realized that I was, in fact, powerless against alcohol and my life was, in fact, unmanageable. Since I had already cleared that hurdle, I've been racking up meetings and soaking up info like you wouldn't believe. I know I'll make it work this time, because this time I actually have faith and willingness.

I feel horrible for you. Losing those you care about is the worst pain I have put myself through. But hold on and don't jeopardize anything else. Turn it around.

Impurrfect

((Dipso)) one thing about finding bottom...the only way to go is up!

Sorry about the DUI, and alcohol wasn't my "thing" but I did my own kind of damage with crack.

I'm glad you're here, glad you're reaching out for support both here and f2f.

Hugs and prayers!

Amy

dipso

The actuality of this still hasn't really set in.
This is a fight to give my life new hope and meaning.

In a strange way, I am somewhat relieved...(almost) anything will be better than the slow turning malaise of the past 5 years of raw deception and pain.

Anna

Dipso,

I am sorry that you are going through this, but I think it's great that it's pushed you to take action and take care of yourself.

And, please know, we all deserve a good life.

CarolD

Welcome back to SR....

Sorry to know of the situation but glad
you will be finding assistance....

Blessings to you and your family

stugotz

You will throw everything and everyone away. Its guaranteed as long as we continue to use. So it shouldnt be a surprise. On the other hand AA offers "The Promises" thats a much better alternative.

least

Sounds like you already found your bottom to me. I hope you can move upward and forward now and leave alcohol and its troubles behind you.

dipso

Well, Wife tonight reiterated that the one thing she really wants is to meet someone else in order to have another child with them...anyone but me. Ouch. And all of this said very rationally, cooly, and with basically no emotion. I am 5 days sober, and starting to see clearly, and well, what I see is a whole lot of **** I created.

I'm a mess.

Whaa.

LifeIs

Dipso,

Congrats on the 5 days of sobriety, take off from here, one day at a time. Sorry for all your problems, but important now is to move forward. Thanks for your share.

Best of Luck!:ghug3

DayWalker

Sorry to hear that your going through this dipso. I went through the exact same thing (3rd DUI and losing the woman I was engaged to) back in the late 90's. I know it sucks beyond words but you will get through this. Stay strong and use this as the thing that helped change your life for the better.

Steve

sunrise1

Dipso, so sorry to hear of your troubles.

From firsthand experience... I know now that there will be no big blinking neon sign saying " YOU HAVE HIT YOUR BOTTOM" ... My bottom will not be the same as someone else's. But- it might help to see what you have left to lose; if that list is getting very short, consider that maybe you passed that sign on the highway and just didn't notice.

flutter

So if this isn't what you consider to be your 'bottom'.. what would it be? (you don't have to hit one to recover..)