robbo78

Hi All,

45 days sober today, however the last 3 or 4 days have been really hard.

Went to doctors expecting a liver blood test, 1st nusre didnt know what test i was therefore, they she told me after asking about my last results, that it was another test for my kidney which is high not the liver. (this after asking my doctors about results and never mentioned kidneys)

Once again got a bit worried started seaching websites for problems from alcohol and kidneys etc, on top of that i think my anxiety started to get a bit worse, headaches, pains and twitching. Then i just started crying thinking what the point etc. This has happened about 3 or 4 times over the last few days.

Look forward to any replies.


Robbo

Robbo

tommyk

I'd strongly suggest AA, the 12 steps, and a sponsor.

You don't have to endure this alone.

CarolD

I have changed doctors when I feel
they are not listening and or benefiting my health.

Once, after waiting almost an hour in a cold exam room
draped in paper ..on the uncomfortable table...
.no contact with anyone. ...I got fed up....
dressed and left. Made an appointment with his partner..

Sorry to know you are having difficulties ...

ANEWAUGUST

Congrats on the 45 days..

When I was sober before, I can remember being totally all over the page emotionally around 45 days.

Be gentle with yourself...breath...

As Carol said, you may need to change doctors.

Just don't awfulize, and anticipate something bad before, or that may not even be bad. Stay in the moment...think how far you have come in 45 days....

CarolD

Well done on your sober time.....

gravity

As an anxiety sufferer, you are doing exactly what I always do - self-diagnose and think of the worst case scenario.

Let the professionals do the medical diagnosis - not a web search.

I am dealing with my anxiety through AA (12 steps, sponsor, fellowship) and I start counselling next week.

You are not alone on this but get some help.

Take care.

tigers13

Hi robbo...congrats on 45 days! I believe what you are going thru is completely normal. When I was using, I had no idea what feelings were...I kept them locked away and could avoid them with drinking. When I got clean, I actually started to feel, and I had no idea what to do with them since I hadn't "felt" in so many years. Needless to say, my emotions were all over the place and it was like being on a huge rollercoaster that I couldn't stop.

Go easy on yourself. Like everything else, it's a process and we each need to find our way. Please find someone you can talk to whenever it feels like too much to bare alone. Plus I have found this is a great place to be able to share and get ideas. :ghug3

robbo78

This is the very thing i do, i feel the headache/pulse and tingle in arm then search net for a diagonose myself, as a worrier i just cant help myself. The only hope i hold on for is that i truly can not remember having the headaches, twitching etc while i was drinking my 10 pints a night (in fact didnt even have a headache in the morning).

Thanks for yoour replies.

Robbo

Wolfchild

Hang on and continue to have hope today.
Please be careful with diagnosing yourself,
it could lead an episode of self medication.

Perhaps seeking the love and support of people
in a meeting would help to relieve the tension?

Firehazard

Congrats on the time accumulated we have to really be good to ourselves as

we heal. I heard in the rooms of AA "EASY DOES

IT"and that works for me.

c49

Not alone! I had it for 2 months when I first got sober and I didnt feel like it was worth the effort anymore.

I caved and drank right when I was starting to feel better.... DOH!!!!!!! Hang in there!