cptspalding

Thought I could go it alone and give up the beer. I was wrong so I'm going to take myself off to the misuse centre in a few hours. Hate myself for doing it 'cos I thought I was stronger than this. :sorry

Astro

It has nothing to do with strength, I know how weak I was in the presence of King Alcohol. I hope you can find a way to be gentle with yourself. Not everyone is going to get it the first time, or the second, etc. The important thing is that you're back with a new plan of attack, and understand that doing it alone is difficult if not impossible. Keep in touch and let us know how it goes.

cptspalding

Thank you Astro means alot.

Fubarcdn

It is good that you realize it and are getting the help that you need.
It is a battle for all of us and sometimes we all need someone or something to lean on.
Do what you have to do.
Good luck.

barb dwyer

none of us could do it alone, captn.

that's whey we're here.

aasharon90

Astro is right. Keep coming back is
something you will hear often and
is always suggested with love and
care.

We r not perfect people. All they
want us to do is progress to do
better one day at a time.

I for myself entered the doors
of recovery via a family inter-
vention against my will. They
did for me what I couldnt do
for myself meaning they got
me the help i so needed to
not end my life.

Rehab for 28 days was a
controled inviroment or a
safe haven away from the
desire and temptation to
pick up another drink.

Im extremely grateful for
that.

While there, i picked up the
tools and knowledge of my
disease of alcoholism. The
knowledge of what caused
me to drink and why. Why
was it so hard for me to
stay stop drinking? Why
did I fail so many times?
Why was I weak?

There are answers to all
those questions and more.

You will find out that like
I, you are not alone in ur
struggles and in finding
out why we cant drink
successfully will ease ur
struggles.

August 11th, 1990 was
my first full day without
alcohol some many one
days at a time collected
together almost 19 yrs ago.

How have I managed to
not drink for so long? Well,
like many here I continue
to not drink ODAAT. I also
share my experiences,
strengths and hopes of
what it was like before,
during and after alcohol
with anyone who wishes
to listen.

I continue to attend AA
meetings and share my
tray of goodies at each
meeting.

It took a many days of
drinking that made me
so sick and near death
to the many days of
following those before
me in recovery, hanging
on a many coattails to
finally stand on my own
and understand who and
what I was.

Hi Im Sharon and Im an
Alcoholic. By the grace
of my HP and people
like you here in SR I
havent found it necessary
to pick up a drink of
alcohol since 8-11-90.

For that and u I am
truely grateful.

The recovery path will
lead u living a happy,
joyous and free life.

digderidoo

What's the point in trying to go alone when there is alot of support out there??

I wish i'd have asked myself that question for the 3 years i was attempting to go alone.

Paul

Taking5

Quote of the day!

DayWalker

Don't ever hate yourself. As someone said above it has NOTHING to do with strength, trust me. I'm 6'7" 310 and a pretty strong guy, yet nothing has brought me to my knee's like alcoholism. Don't ever feel weak because of this. Stay here and ask for help when needed, and work some sort of program no matter what that may be.

Steve

Mark75

Hey Capt.

You don't have to do it yourself... This is a tough journey and you actually help others as much as you help yourself if you seek company and support.

I watched The Devil's Rejects over the weekend... Thought of you!! LOL

Mark

debs

Hell, I've tried it alone more times than I can count.

I started AA this past Saturday and it's the strongest I've ever felt in my attempt at sobriety...

Don't waste time trying something that is almost always impossible.

Alcoholism is strong, vicious, and unrelenting.

No one should have to face it alone.

:ghug3

laurie6781

It's not about strength. It's not about Will Power.

The fact is that alcohol has made you it's SLAVE. Once I 'surrendered' to that fact, and that I could not do this, I asked for help. Help was there and yes I am sober a long time now.

"I" could not do it alone. "We" can do it together. Ask for help, you will be amazed at what you discover.

J M H O

Love and hugs,

cptspalding

Thank you all for your kind messages . It means alot. Yeah cubile75 it is a cool film, havn,t seen the remake of haloween yet tho'

Tazman53

Captain I assume from your moniker that you were or are in the military. Team work is what they pounded into our heads, working together for a common cause right? I was in the military also, but I had always been able to overcome anything in my life alone with sheer determination and will power............... until it came to my alcoholism!

I use the program of AA and the fellowship of AA to stay sober today and I do not feel weak willed at all, today I am able to simply choose not to drink, I found a solution to my alcoholism.

Think about it, why is SR here? Why is there AA, SMART, & other recovery programs? The reason is that most alcoholics who are in recovery can not do it alone, but they can do it together.

Is there any shame or weakness in being in a platoon? Absolutely not! There is strength in numbers.

I could not stay sober alone, but we can stay sober.

KenL

There will always be someone to reach out to. Whether it's here on SR or elsewhere. All you have to do is ask...sometimes that's the hardest part but it's better than the infernal misery that addiction brings about.

yeahgr8

What a great position for you to be in! You realise you can't do it alone and are putting your hand up for help. Trust me that beats wasting years of your life with stints of sobriety kidding yourself you are moving forward! Good luck:-)

CarolD

Welcome back to SR.....

Many of us had false starts on our way to solid sobriety.
Good to know you are beginning again

Charmie

hey there,,there is nothing weak willed about trying and failing to beat booze.as soon as i surrendered to alcohol and stopped trying to fight it (disasterous for 20yrs),,my compulsion to drink left me.i could not have done this alone,over the yrs i made a couple of feeble attempts but it had me well and truly by the short and curlies for the last yrs of my boozing.i have only been sober 6 months,i say only,its a miracle! and i will be forever learning,but today i have a completely different outlook and life and its good.this is thanks to AA,the 12 step recovery programme,good sponsorship and a God of my understanding.surrender to win! my best wishes are with you.