my story, and a few questions
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my story, and a few questions
Hello everyone I'm new here and i would like to tell you all my story and maybe you all can offer me some advise.
I live in a very small rural town in Minnesota where everyone is either a redneck or some kind of addict unfortunately i am the later. I started drinking when i was very young (about 15 years old i am currently 23). Although i didn't start drinking daily till about 18-19 years old its hard to remember. about a month ago i got my second DUI with a blood alch % of .43 i spent the weekend in jail and missed my friends birthday party. When i got out of jail i started drinking 2 times as much as i would have prior which was an insane amount in 1 day. My roommates noticed that i was going down a worse path then i was already on (if that was even possible). One night after drinking over a case of beer and a pint of vodka my roommates told me i had a problem and i blew up and when on a complete rage i beat one of them and threatened the rest. Thankfully they did not call the police but called my parents to come and take me away. Since i've been living with my parents its only been about a week. At first the withdrawals were so bad i couldn't even drink water without throwing it up within minutes but that slowly passed. I now can eat and drink freely without feeling too sick. My symptoms right now are much less severe. I cannot sleep at night, in the week i've been here i've slept maybe 3 hours and every time i fall asleep i wake up, usually from an intense nightmare soaking wet in sweat. I constantly have diarhea. I also am very anxious and i find myself just watching the minutes tick by on the clock. I also seem to have an unusually fast heart rate and that is kind of scaring me and sometimes ill get the shakes and my body will feel tingly and itchy all over.
The main question i have for you all is how did you get threw being an alcoholic without going completly insane. ive never really known sobriety and i want to know how you are coping with it and if there is anything i can do to speed the process up i feel like pulling out my hair and just giving up altogether.
I dont want to go back to the way i was Ive lost everything and now im facing some jail time unless i can convince the judge to just let me do impatient treatment.
any help you can offer will be much appritiated and i thank you in advance.
I live in a very small rural town in Minnesota where everyone is either a redneck or some kind of addict unfortunately i am the later. I started drinking when i was very young (about 15 years old i am currently 23). Although i didn't start drinking daily till about 18-19 years old its hard to remember. about a month ago i got my second DUI with a blood alch % of .43 i spent the weekend in jail and missed my friends birthday party. When i got out of jail i started drinking 2 times as much as i would have prior which was an insane amount in 1 day. My roommates noticed that i was going down a worse path then i was already on (if that was even possible). One night after drinking over a case of beer and a pint of vodka my roommates told me i had a problem and i blew up and when on a complete rage i beat one of them and threatened the rest. Thankfully they did not call the police but called my parents to come and take me away. Since i've been living with my parents its only been about a week. At first the withdrawals were so bad i couldn't even drink water without throwing it up within minutes but that slowly passed. I now can eat and drink freely without feeling too sick. My symptoms right now are much less severe. I cannot sleep at night, in the week i've been here i've slept maybe 3 hours and every time i fall asleep i wake up, usually from an intense nightmare soaking wet in sweat. I constantly have diarhea. I also am very anxious and i find myself just watching the minutes tick by on the clock. I also seem to have an unusually fast heart rate and that is kind of scaring me and sometimes ill get the shakes and my body will feel tingly and itchy all over.
The main question i have for you all is how did you get threw being an alcoholic without going completly insane. ive never really known sobriety and i want to know how you are coping with it and if there is anything i can do to speed the process up i feel like pulling out my hair and just giving up altogether.
I dont want to go back to the way i was Ive lost everything and now im facing some jail time unless i can convince the judge to just let me do impatient treatment.
any help you can offer will be much appritiated and i thank you in advance.
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welcome,
What really helped me was having a sober friend take me to AA. They showed me it worked by example. Later I worked the program of AA and it saved my life.
Inpatient treatment is a good idea. But for instant help I would recommend trying AA.
What really helped me was having a sober friend take me to AA. They showed me it worked by example. Later I worked the program of AA and it saved my life.
Inpatient treatment is a good idea. But for instant help I would recommend trying AA.
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are you asking about the withdrawal?...
All your symtoms were the norm for me.
the nightmares and snatches of sleep normally got worse just before proper sleep kicked in..
Sweating is pretty usual.......all that sh@t has gotta get out your system.
the sweating will ease.....just remember to keep replacing that fluid.
i used water....lots of.
nerves shot to bits.........twitchy.....all pretty usual.
BUT Withdrawal from alcohol can be dangerous...
if you can get to a doctor it would be good.........just to be safe.
most of my detoxes were done with medical intervention.....because i suffer from seizures whilst going through delerium tremens....hallucinating.
5/8 days for me and it was over
All your symtoms were the norm for me.
the nightmares and snatches of sleep normally got worse just before proper sleep kicked in..
Sweating is pretty usual.......all that sh@t has gotta get out your system.
the sweating will ease.....just remember to keep replacing that fluid.
i used water....lots of.
nerves shot to bits.........twitchy.....all pretty usual.
BUT Withdrawal from alcohol can be dangerous...
if you can get to a doctor it would be good.........just to be safe.
most of my detoxes were done with medical intervention.....because i suffer from seizures whilst going through delerium tremens....hallucinating.
5/8 days for me and it was over
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I have been to AA and i'm not sure i like it I can see how you can find help there and find others that can help you, but the one closest to me takes place in a church and it ends up being more like a sermon then a place to seek out help the subject of alcohol abuse hardly came up at all. should i seek out a differn't venue? or are most AA meetings revolved around god and seeking out a higher power? plus like i said i live in a very small town so in these meetings there are maybe 4 people there at a time and i dont relate to anyone.
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gladmy heart goes out to you. last sunday i was in the situation of getting a dui early morning and then going thru withdrawal. i too had diarrhea and didn't eat for a couple of days. i'm still terrified about what my penalty is going to be. i don't go to court until sept 1st. i too woke up with a pounding heart--i know i was having anxiety attacks. i'm trying to quit thinking it to death, but that's hard. i have started eating....just to let you know a few of my symptoms. hang in there please. my mom has been supportive and also my best friend that i haven't really been around in a while. take whatever help anyone offers. it's been hard for me since i'm so independent, but i figure i need to do whatever it is to get thru the day. everyone keeps telling me it will pass. but it's easy for them to say and hard for me right now. so i think i know a little bit of where you are. please keep coming here... at least just to read if you feel you can't post. we're all here to support you. really.
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@ bohemianzen
I also have been told countless times that it will just pass by everyone i talk to but for some reason my mind just doesnt think it will and that if i have a few drinks itll all be better but i know that that wont help at all. I cant do that anyways because im basicly a prisoner in my parents house which is probably a good thing
I really want to get better and thank you all for your responses
I also have been told countless times that it will just pass by everyone i talk to but for some reason my mind just doesnt think it will and that if i have a few drinks itll all be better but i know that that wont help at all. I cant do that anyways because im basicly a prisoner in my parents house which is probably a good thing
I really want to get better and thank you all for your responses
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Hi Glad,
Sorry you are going through this but it is part of the process. Try to remember these horrible feelings to help you not pick up that first drink in the future.
This is a good read even if you don't go to the meetings Big Book Online Fourth Edition
This will help you to understand what is going on http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
Outside of that read as much as you can here & keep posting your thoughts, questions, feelings & struggles.
It is a new beginning on life & living a sober life can be tough at first but it is wonderful once it starts to set in. Please take care & be good to yourself.
Try not to think too far ahead, just for today or this hour or minute if need be.
You will find a lot of love & support here, we all suffer from the same thing addiction (alcohol is mine, if I have one I am done)
Take care & keep posting ;-)
NB
Sorry you are going through this but it is part of the process. Try to remember these horrible feelings to help you not pick up that first drink in the future.
This is a good read even if you don't go to the meetings Big Book Online Fourth Edition
This will help you to understand what is going on http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...influence.html
Outside of that read as much as you can here & keep posting your thoughts, questions, feelings & struggles.
It is a new beginning on life & living a sober life can be tough at first but it is wonderful once it starts to set in. Please take care & be good to yourself.
Try not to think too far ahead, just for today or this hour or minute if need be.
You will find a lot of love & support here, we all suffer from the same thing addiction (alcohol is mine, if I have one I am done)
Take care & keep posting ;-)
NB
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Glad,
I know its hard to believe right now but it will get better. I am only on day 18 and the only problem I am having now is sleep but that is improving a bit. I still get moments when I would really like a drink especially today. I am sure you may be getting the same weather in MN as we are in WI and it is HOT and HUMID!
Stay strong as this too shall pass.
I know its hard to believe right now but it will get better. I am only on day 18 and the only problem I am having now is sleep but that is improving a bit. I still get moments when I would really like a drink especially today. I am sure you may be getting the same weather in MN as we are in WI and it is HOT and HUMID!
Stay strong as this too shall pass.
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"...there are maybe 4 people there at a time and i dont relate to anyone."
I go to meetings to LEARN HOW to relate to everyone.
That's what I never knew how to do, that's why I drank, lol.
Meetings, for me, are far more than just about alcohol abuse/use.
I go to meetings to LEARN HOW to relate to everyone.
That's what I never knew how to do, that's why I drank, lol.
Meetings, for me, are far more than just about alcohol abuse/use.
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I will continue to try the AA meetings because it seems to work for many people, i think i may try and find a new meeting place otherwise i just don't see it helping anymore then talking to close friends or relatives does.
I will continue to try the AA meetings because it seems to work for many people, i think i may try and find a new meeting place otherwise i just don't see it helping anymore then talking to close friends or relatives does.
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Keep in focus ...please keep posting...
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yes its been very humid here in MN and its pretty miserable my parents live on a lake so ive been going swimming to cope and that seems to help me keep my mind off of drinking. i have a question tho after 18 days do u still experence the vivid dreams and night sweats?
yes its been very humid here in MN and its pretty miserable my parents live on a lake so ive been going swimming to cope and that seems to help me keep my mind off of drinking. i have a question tho after 18 days do u still experence the vivid dreams and night sweats?
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Originally Posted by glad1242 
The main question i have for you all is how did you get threw being an alcoholic without going completly insane.
Welcome!!!
Keep coming back, you'll find a lot of support here.
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Well....my dreams did last longer than 18 days.
The longer I stayed sober .
..they lessened in both frequency and intensity.
My sweating did not last as long as yours.
I've never sweated much anyway...even in hot summertime.
Here is a link...please read it for general information
Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center
The longer I stayed sober .
..they lessened in both frequency and intensity.
My sweating did not last as long as yours.
I've never sweated much anyway...even in hot summertime.
Here is a link...please read it for general information
Post Acute Withdrawl - Relapse Prevention Specialists - TLC The Living Center
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Hi glad 1242
I have to go with Trucker and others here and advise some medical supervision - based on my experience, 18 days seems to me to be at the long end to have to suffer these symptoms - but of course ultimately it's up to you.
Here's a thread detailing some of our experiences of detox and withdrawal - I found it of use I hope you do too
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
Welcome to SR!
D
I have to go with Trucker and others here and advise some medical supervision - based on my experience, 18 days seems to me to be at the long end to have to suffer these symptoms - but of course ultimately it's up to you.
Here's a thread detailing some of our experiences of detox and withdrawal - I found it of use I hope you do too
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
Welcome to SR!
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Glad,
Sorry it took so long to answer, went to visit family.
The sweats are much better. Nothing like the beginning. As for the dreams I have been taking melatonin for the sleep issues and that causes dreams too so I don't know if they have anything to do with the alcohol. But the sleep has been getting better. I don't know about you but the first week I was lucky to get an hour straight sleep before waking in a sweat.
I bet the lake is wonderful in this weather. My son is on his way back to college in MN as we type! Stay busy and focused and you can make it through! 8 days is over the physical hump now we just have to learn a new way to live.
Take Care
Sorry it took so long to answer, went to visit family.
The sweats are much better. Nothing like the beginning. As for the dreams I have been taking melatonin for the sleep issues and that causes dreams too so I don't know if they have anything to do with the alcohol. But the sleep has been getting better. I don't know about you but the first week I was lucky to get an hour straight sleep before waking in a sweat.
I bet the lake is wonderful in this weather. My son is on his way back to college in MN as we type! Stay busy and focused and you can make it through! 8 days is over the physical hump now we just have to learn a new way to live.
Take Care
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