Day 199 and counting...
9/15/08
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2008
Location: midwest
Posts: 257
Day 199 and counting...
I can't believe I've made it this long!
I still struggle with some of the PAWS stuff; like insomnia, inability to concentrate, occasional mood swings...but it sure as hell beats drinking.
It's also wierd that I've been experiencing fleeting feelings of guilt, remorse, and sadness, as if I've done something wrong and I don't know why.
A good friend in recovery told me that it was all the crap I covered up with booze that I am now genuinely *feeling* for the first time in a long time.
Yuck!
I still struggle with some of the PAWS stuff; like insomnia, inability to concentrate, occasional mood swings...but it sure as hell beats drinking.
It's also wierd that I've been experiencing fleeting feelings of guilt, remorse, and sadness, as if I've done something wrong and I don't know why.
A good friend in recovery told me that it was all the crap I covered up with booze that I am now genuinely *feeling* for the first time in a long time.
Yuck!
problem with authority
Join Date: Nov 2007
Location: Washington, DC
Posts: 870
I felt the way you describe many, many times, especially during the first year. I did notice after time that those episodes would become less frequent and less severe. I had to learn to give myself a break, take a nap if necessary, talk a walk, drink some water, pick up the phone. What also helped is knowing that what I was feeling is a normal part of the brain healing from years of repeated pummeling with alcohol. Takes about 90 days for a new brain cell to develop. I wonder if that's why people report strange mood swings around their three-month anniversary intervals.
Anyway, it does get better, if you don't drink.
M
Anyway, it does get better, if you don't drink.
M
9/15/08
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2008
Location: midwest
Posts: 257
Still having some irritability and insomnia here and there.
Job performance has improved, and school is going great. Preparing to finish my masters and possibly enter a Phd program.
Trying to be aware of the HALT thing...hungry, angry, lonely, tired...and avoid experiencing those extremes.
Job performance has improved, and school is going great. Preparing to finish my masters and possibly enter a Phd program.
Trying to be aware of the HALT thing...hungry, angry, lonely, tired...and avoid experiencing those extremes.
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