NOMOMERLOTMAMMA

I had last night what has to be the most vivid, frightening, and realistic drunk dream that I've ever had. I was scared and woke up crying, waking up A and begging her to tell me that I didn't drink last night. Jeesh. In my dream, I kept asking people.."what do you mean I was drinking?" "what do you mean I blacked out?". Horrible. A asked me why I drank in my dream, and I told her "it was just there". Like I forgot I was an alkie.

This after a very fun and silly evening spent playing games with friends with long term sobriety. Some serious recovery going on there..it was a great night!

Maybe it's the whole year sober thing coming up, maybe it's that I missed my meetings for a week when I was sick...don't know. Hitting the book today and working harder..

Scared the heck out of me!

stone

It's scary isn't it? It's so real!

And such a relief that it's only a dream.

WLDKATZ

I had one similar I swore I smelled it on me it was weird.....maybe it is our subcouncious testing us on what or how we would do....dont think it is the year thing for me cuse I dont have that for almost 4 months.......lol

CarolD

They sure are upsetting!
Mine did cease after 2 or so years.

I don't know why they pop up.
Or why mine stopped.

chip

It's been said that drinking dreams are a gift of sorts....we experience the horror of a relapse without actually having one. For me, after I have one, I'm flooded with gratitude that I didn't actually drink. I also find that I may learn a lesson or get some point out of the dream ie. keep vigilant with my program.
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Taking5

I've even had fake hangovers for about 30 seconds until I realized it was a dream!

Sugah

I still have them every once in awhile, Karen, and I've found that it's usually when I'm under a lot of stress (same goes for run-of-the-mill nightmares). I was told once that somewhere deep in our unconscious mind, there's that memory of escape, and when we go to sleep, it can manifest in dreams like this. Kind of the same way I have nightmares about being chased -- the tiger breathing down my neck.

I know a woman who just picked up a 25 year chip in the last couple of weeks, and she says she has one every year around her anniversary. She says she welcomes the reminder that she has alcoholism, not alcoholwasm.

Prayers of gratitude? It was just a dream.

Peace & Love,
Sugah

miss communicat

Karen,

Thanks for sharing about the drink dream you had. I also had one this week. It was so similar...I just drank a glass of wine automatically "because it was there", and forgot totally that I am sober, in recovery, cannot drink etc. I remember the worse part in the dream is that i only had 1 glass, did not get drunk or black out and that "success" in drinking set me right back to where I was when I stopped. I was back to the daily merry go round of thinking obsessively of when I will have the first glass of wine (should i wait til 7pm or have it at 6pm?) and the internal conflicts about drinking again.

When I woke up to realise it was just a dream, I was so scared that I could THAT easily fall right back into the old hell.

Or as you say, Holy Hell, what a dream!

Constant Vigilance for us~~~~

Dee74

I had a recurring drinking dream this week...me being me, I damn well had it again and again until I *didn't* drink LOL

it's scary Mamma but in the end it's just a dream.
Keep fighting the good fight
D

User_Name

Same thing happens to me. Pretty weird.

I still wake up somedays and open my eyes slowly...don't move for a second... and try to determine how hungover I am. It seems to be a habit from when I did have to judge a hangover's severity every day. It's nice when after a few seconds I realize I didn't drink, nor do I have a hangover. Pretty weird stuff, but I have to laugh about it or else I'd cry.

chip

Once, I had some old friends of mine stay at my place after their band played at a local night club. I used to drink with them when I drank. Before going to bed, we hung out in my garage, like old times...except I was drinking pop while they were drinking beer. The next day, I felt like I had a hangover. I think it was an emotional response.
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GreenTea

I think some of that, more than anything, is simply your body "remembering" (or your subconscious perhaps). The last time you hung out in the garage with your friends like that a hangover was involved. The "party" with your sober friends, there's typically wine involved when you feel that good with people. Historically, when dealing with stress, there's usually some drinking involved. It might just be a part of your mind saying "hey, where's the alcohol that usually accompanies all this?"

Tazman53

Wow must be dream week, I had one a few days ago, it started right off with me with a beer in hand, well naturally I turned it right up and then immediately realized what I was doing and slammed it down into a trash can cursing myself!!! Then I immediately realized that I had better get to a meeting and pick up a 24 hour chip and share just how damn cunning, baffling, and powerful it really is!!!! Thoughts of what I needed to work on were racing through my head, I woke up with quite a start and was very relieved to know it was a dream.

StayinAlive

I just had one, woke up and got right on here to search "using dream" and found this thread.

In the dream i was gathering and hording what i could find while guzzling at the same time knowing i only had a limited time before i got caught, there was a party of sorts with family and Friends in another part of the house and i had locked myself in my room to isolate and get loaded all the while feeling unworthy, guilty and scared. NASTY!!!

Very unsettling, i am at 7 months and was wondering if this is any sign of weakness in my recovery or program???? I dont think like this so why do i dream it.

needtobefree

I had a drug using dream a couple of weeks ago but I've given up hard drugs now for 11 years. It shook me that I actually wanted to take it in my dream, it was as if I were back there. Something I'd much rather forget but it was a reminder of how far I've come in some respects and also how much I am still in danger should I come across a situation where I were offered some, I think I'd say no, I hope I'd say no but the dream made me question that.

Were I low enough I very likely could, ppl that have nothing to lose are dangerous.

Tazman53

Just another alcoholics opinion, but from your reaction to the dream you are doing better. Did you wake up wanting to drink or were you scared you had? Your dream sure sounds like you did not want to be drinking. They happen, usually the longer one is sober the less often they happen.