My first thread here
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My first thread here
Well, I guess everyone has to do that, from what I see around this forum. Maybe someone can relate to my particular problem.
I drink every night, and sometimes binges on the weekend. Once I start I cannot stop because I guess what goes through my head is "Why have just one when you can have them all." I often wonder if it is the particular environment I am in that pushes me to drink in order to cope with stress and anxiety both of which are a consistent problem in my life either from the drinking or perhaps an underlying problem.
I have consistently had guilt about the drinking, and consistently find myself psychologically in an enormous rut, completely depressed and having no confidence in my ability to stand against my need to rely on alcohol just to relax or feel normal.
It's as though without it, I cannot sleep, I cannot have no anxiety. When I am sober all I do is regret every damn thing I've done on alcohol. Maybe someone can relate, most people I talk to about this, close friends or what not just don't understand the nature of it.
I drink every night, and sometimes binges on the weekend. Once I start I cannot stop because I guess what goes through my head is "Why have just one when you can have them all." I often wonder if it is the particular environment I am in that pushes me to drink in order to cope with stress and anxiety both of which are a consistent problem in my life either from the drinking or perhaps an underlying problem.
I have consistently had guilt about the drinking, and consistently find myself psychologically in an enormous rut, completely depressed and having no confidence in my ability to stand against my need to rely on alcohol just to relax or feel normal.
It's as though without it, I cannot sleep, I cannot have no anxiety. When I am sober all I do is regret every damn thing I've done on alcohol. Maybe someone can relate, most people I talk to about this, close friends or what not just don't understand the nature of it.
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Hi....
Please read the 2nd sticky post here
it's full of information and it's from
the book that convinced me to quit drinking.
The reason I began AA recovery was because
of my long term depression. The remorse I
had over my drinking action vanished when I did
the AA Steps 4 & 5.
Welcome to SR!
Please read the 2nd sticky post here
it's full of information and it's from
the book that convinced me to quit drinking.
The reason I began AA recovery was because
of my long term depression. The remorse I
had over my drinking action vanished when I did
the AA Steps 4 & 5.
Welcome to SR!
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Join Date: Sep 2007
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Welcome Vig,i think many on here will understand exactly what you are going through.I think its a combination of things that make us drink to excess and use it as a crutch,and any excuse.You will get support here and good advice and sounds like you should seek medical advice as well,best wishes.
get it, give it, grow in it
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Sounds like you're ready to surrender and have the willingness req. to stop your alcohol abuse. If you want recovery it is available, don't let your "stinkin' thinkin" get in the way. Good luck to you in this journey
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Lots of years of sobriety, experience, strength, and hope are in here. Also there are are those in here who are also new to sobriety. What they talk about is as important and useful as those with lots of experience.
Welcome.
Tom
Welcome.
Tom
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Welcome, vig! I certainly can relate to everything you said...and I bet a lot of others here can too.
Good for you for reaching out. I drank in secret for many years...but when I finally reached out for help, many sober alcoholics extended a hand and showed me a new way of life. I don't have to drink today, and I'm grateful for that.
Please stick around and keep posting. We're glad you're here
Good for you for reaching out. I drank in secret for many years...but when I finally reached out for help, many sober alcoholics extended a hand and showed me a new way of life. I don't have to drink today, and I'm grateful for that.
Please stick around and keep posting. We're glad you're here
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Join Date: Nov 2007
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Don't feel alone -- I can definitely understand how you feel. Your words could (are) mine. Esp why just drink one? I never could understand the point of that. If you're gonna drink, drink. And I always feel guilty and not worthy. I've always used alcohol to cope with anything good or bad. My best stress reliever. And there are so many others here that understand too.
Glad you found SR - I'm a newbie too and come here everyday.
Welcome!!
Glad you found SR - I'm a newbie too and come here everyday.
Welcome!!
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