barb dwyer

... the phone rings.

Kindly remember that I work graveyard, so if the sun is out - I'm probably asleep. I'm the only person I know for whom the sound of chainsaws and lawnmowers actually makes me sleepy. It's taken years for me to achieve this.

So I hear this noise and it takes me a minute to think -
Oh yeah - I have a phone now ...
So I answer the phone.
It's a woman from the group.
I used to serve her, and her husband.

One of many in the group.

She's called to thank me.
She's made some important decisions, tells me that I am the one who helped her the most back when she was drinking. Meaning - while I was still tending bar. Back when *I* was still drinking.

I feel like I've tuned into a tv show in progress, and am trying to figure out who all the characters are.
She then proceeds to tell me about one night in particular, where we went to breakfast after I'd closed the bar, and I'd advised her about her relationship, marriage, and so on. She told me that I'd really helped her to make the decisions she's making now that she's sober, and that I was the primary reason she'd come to AA in the first place.

*pause for effect*

I have no memory of going to breakfast with this woman.
None.
What.
So.
Ever.
I remember they'd come in the bar,
if they came in together, I knew he was going to get mean.
If he came in alone - he'd probably just get asked to go home soon enough.
If she came in alone,
she and I would usually shoot some pool if it was slow ...
but ...???
breakfast???
conversation???
When?
What year?
Wonder what I had?
Did I pay?
Did she?
Who drove?

When we hung up, I took the opportunity of being awake to do some P&M on it. Mostly, 'thank You for keeping me from, and from doing harm, and for watching over us both at that time as now.'

Spirit said to me once a while back -

"We are as stones, cast into a still pond."

We never know who our words or actions will affect, do we?
Even when we 'go back out'.
We just never know who may be watching.
Who may need to see something.
Who HP may be using us to 'reach'.
Or when.
Or how.

"Of myself, I am nothing."

How clearly that was shown to me today.
Thanks for letting me share.
barb

parentrecovers

we touch more people than we know. blessings, k

Peter

Wake up call?

You know it is a "wake up call " when your spouse of 11 yrs is out until 4 am with another man.

GlassPrisoner

Or at the next door "neighbors" when you go to bed, and still there when you wake up.

barb dwyer

:Yikes

done2

Thank you for this.