Let Me Introduce Myself
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Location: San Diego, CA
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Let Me Introduce Myself
Hi -
I've been reading this forum for a couple of years. The first time I got drunk I was 14 or so, I'm now 30. I've been drinking heavily on a regular basis since I was 19. I drank when I was happy, I drank when I was sad, I drank to not feel anxiety, I drank to overcome shyness, I drank to not feel shame, I felt shame because I drank. I drank every morning before I left the house, I got drunk nearly every night. I've driven around drunk so many times I couldn't begin to count. It's only by the grace of God I haven't hurt anyone or myself for that matter. I thought I couldn't live without drinking - then I realized drinking had taken away the reasons I had to live.
My mother's father - my grandfather was an alcoholic and his grandfather was an alcoholic too, I guess it often skips a generation. I hope I don't pass it on to my kids. Nothing good has ever happened in my life as a result of drinking, I can see that now. In fact it's taken away a lot of who I am. I've been involved in a couple co-dependent relationships, that have revolved around drinking. And the one good relationship I was in, I screwed it up because of my drinking.
In January I ran into fire hydrant in a drunken stupor and was cited with a misdemeanor hit and run, Nearly $7000 later, it was dropped down to "disturbing the peace." However, it may have been the best $7000 I've ever spent. I was sober for 100 days and slipped a couple times after, but am back sober and holding steady. I picked up a copy of "Under The Influence," I've been reading that whenever I feel like I want to drink. I feel better than I've ever felt, I have ambition again, I'm optimistic about the future. I have very few problems with anxiety which were probably originally brought on by drinking in the first place. I always thought I had an anxiety problem but I think it was really a drinking problem.
It's been an adjustment - I broke off a relationship I was in with an addict and have tried to put distance between me and my drinking buddies. It's hard for us to "hang out" now that I'm not drinking. In time I'll establish new relationships that don't revolve around drinking, and at times it's a little lonely, but I'm hanging in there. This board is a great help.
I just wanted to share a little about me, and for now I'm just taking it one day at a time, but I can clearly see the benefits, I just wish I would have done something sooner. Live and learn, hopefully I'm a better person because of it.
Thank you for reading.
I've been reading this forum for a couple of years. The first time I got drunk I was 14 or so, I'm now 30. I've been drinking heavily on a regular basis since I was 19. I drank when I was happy, I drank when I was sad, I drank to not feel anxiety, I drank to overcome shyness, I drank to not feel shame, I felt shame because I drank. I drank every morning before I left the house, I got drunk nearly every night. I've driven around drunk so many times I couldn't begin to count. It's only by the grace of God I haven't hurt anyone or myself for that matter. I thought I couldn't live without drinking - then I realized drinking had taken away the reasons I had to live.
My mother's father - my grandfather was an alcoholic and his grandfather was an alcoholic too, I guess it often skips a generation. I hope I don't pass it on to my kids. Nothing good has ever happened in my life as a result of drinking, I can see that now. In fact it's taken away a lot of who I am. I've been involved in a couple co-dependent relationships, that have revolved around drinking. And the one good relationship I was in, I screwed it up because of my drinking.
In January I ran into fire hydrant in a drunken stupor and was cited with a misdemeanor hit and run, Nearly $7000 later, it was dropped down to "disturbing the peace." However, it may have been the best $7000 I've ever spent. I was sober for 100 days and slipped a couple times after, but am back sober and holding steady. I picked up a copy of "Under The Influence," I've been reading that whenever I feel like I want to drink. I feel better than I've ever felt, I have ambition again, I'm optimistic about the future. I have very few problems with anxiety which were probably originally brought on by drinking in the first place. I always thought I had an anxiety problem but I think it was really a drinking problem.
It's been an adjustment - I broke off a relationship I was in with an addict and have tried to put distance between me and my drinking buddies. It's hard for us to "hang out" now that I'm not drinking. In time I'll establish new relationships that don't revolve around drinking, and at times it's a little lonely, but I'm hanging in there. This board is a great help.
I just wanted to share a little about me, and for now I'm just taking it one day at a time, but I can clearly see the benefits, I just wish I would have done something sooner. Live and learn, hopefully I'm a better person because of it.
Thank you for reading.
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Join Date: Jan 2007
Location: baltimore, maryland
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Nice to meet you Rhapsody,
I wish I had your attitude when I was 30, it would have saved me much misery...Keep up the good work, find a program which works for you and work it!!!
It is a wonderful feeling to have control of your life now......
Work Hard and Enjoy Life.....NED
It is a wonderful feeling to have control of your life now......
Work Hard and Enjoy Life.....NED
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