eve123

Doing my step 5 today. Heads telling me that after taking soooo long to do my step 4 resistance not ready whatever, that if this won’t work il drink again. Iv tried so many times to get long term recovery that I’m at end of my road. What if I don’t change? I realise we this is my negative thoughts my alcoholism etc and it’s fear plain and simple. I try each day to hand over to god and some days better than others. Iv heard peps in Aa saying this will give me some relief. What if it doesn’t? Rambling but my head will take me bk to a drink if I do not change

aasharon90

Morning Hedd.....

I don't know if you have the Twelve and Twelve
book. This book explains the 12 steps in detail
and helps us work thru each one in order to
achieve the Promises and remain sober with
continuous recovery.

I added the link below for you to read
in case you don't have that book.

https://www.aa.org/assets/en_US/en_step5.pdf

tomsteve

What if I don’t change?
What if it doesn’t?

then there IS a solution that doesnt involve alcohol.
HOWEVER
youve already started changing. youve gotten to step 4- awesome!!
THAT alone is a HUGE change.

shaun00

I think fear of taking a drink is pretty common in recovery .

I remember feeling like that often , probably up to 3 months and then a short period about 18 months .

But maybe we need to look back a little ?...you ARE sober , you ARE doing what the steps asks of you ...and for me 5 and beyond is where the real shift started to happen .

Remember maybe , that we have started on a road that millions dont , Millions probably never get to the point you are at and ultimately die .

Keep putting one foot in front of the other , there are no real reasons to hang around in the steps but there are plenty of reason to get it done with the passion and commitment you done your drinking ..

Gottalife

All the best Hedd. Step five was a real turning point for me. It wasn't easy, there were so many occasions where I had betrayed my own values that I thought I must be the worst person ever to come to AA, and when my sponsor heard my story, I withheld nothing, he would not want to know me.

It turned out completely different. I lost my sense of shame, I found out I was just an ordinary alcoholic who did alcoholic things. And I began to feel those step 5 promises. It was the best experience. I hope it goes well for you.

Tommyh

Hedd,good luck on the 5th,honesty is essential

you are playing the "what if" game,in specific,the negative "what if" game
what if this,what if that-I lose playing that game

what if you did your 5th and experienced what the big book talks about?What if your life changes for the better forever,starting today?

Fly N Buy

I can't solve Friday's problems on Tuesday. I could what if myself into all kinds of things that never happen. I did the best I could with each step, continued to be teachable (ish) and kept trudging.

TS underlined the fact you did a 4th step. Many never do - that alone is spiritual progress.

Good job, breathe......

eve123

Thank you all for your shares about step 5. Well I completed it with my sponsor and honestly I am humbled. For soooo long over 5 years I have avoided this step thinking it wasn’t important skimming through it but never really grasping my part in the chaos. Not seeing truly how my defects as an alcoholic dry and drunk were so extreme. It was liberating and so obvious where my fears and deep rooted stuff was re playing over and over in my life. My gratitude is up there I am definitely a real alcoholic with all ov the stuff that is laid down in the B.B. now on to my 6 th and 7th I’m ready I’m willing god remove the defects that no longer serve a purpose in my life that have taken me away from your will for me to the torture of alcoholism. Gb

tomsteve

Tommyh

Great job hedd

eve123

Thank you tomsteve and tommy 👍🏼🙏🏼 Feeling blessed today