Reflections of a sober me !
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Reflections of a sober me !
Good morning all
I am coming up to 6 months next week, and I have been thinking of how I have changed .Today is the first day of my vacation time, my first sober holiday ever! I was thinking last nite, usually on my way home from my last shift, i would have carefully calculated the amount of booze needed for the next few days , loaded up the car , headed home , and got into some serious ( blackout) drinking the minute I closed the door .My last holiday , 6 months ago, was spent DRUNK, finally in the last week being picked up for DUI and finding AA, and SR!
Instead , I am looking forward to attending the 50th birthday of a dear AA friend, complete with present ! I could not have done that to save my life 6 months ago. even if I HAD been invited , which would have been most unlikely .
I always wanted to be " invisible" during my drinking , and could not even walk down the street . I achieved absolutely nothing for the 3 weeks of my last vacation, not even planned house stuff, I just drank!
I was sitting on a bus on my way to work yesterday, and for the first time , I felt as if I was really " there " participating in normal life , silly I know , but there is no other way to describe it .
I am a very grateful sober alcoholic today
Thanks for listening
HUGX
Lee
I am coming up to 6 months next week, and I have been thinking of how I have changed .Today is the first day of my vacation time, my first sober holiday ever! I was thinking last nite, usually on my way home from my last shift, i would have carefully calculated the amount of booze needed for the next few days , loaded up the car , headed home , and got into some serious ( blackout) drinking the minute I closed the door .My last holiday , 6 months ago, was spent DRUNK, finally in the last week being picked up for DUI and finding AA, and SR!
Instead , I am looking forward to attending the 50th birthday of a dear AA friend, complete with present !
I could not have done that to save my life 6 months ago. even if I HAD been invited , which would have been most unlikely . I always wanted to be " invisible" during my drinking , and could not even walk down the street . I achieved absolutely nothing for the 3 weeks of my last vacation, not even planned house stuff, I just drank!
I was sitting on a bus on my way to work yesterday, and for the first time , I felt as if I was really " there " participating in normal life , silly I know , but there is no other way to describe it .
I am a very grateful sober alcoholic today
Thanks for listening
HUGX
Lee
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
Your doing so great Lee! I'm very glad to know you and your an important part of our family! Congrats on the upcoming 6 months!!! 6 months already, damn how time flies!! Kudos girl!
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
Hi Lee,
Not silly at all. That's what AA is all about. AA isn't about not drinking. It's about learning how to live life to the fullest. I couldn't live life until I could learn to be comfortable in my own right. Learning to live life day to day, fullfilling responsibilities, being a decent human being; this is what AA offers. Read page 8 in the Big Book where Bill talks about the fourth dimension of existence. See if you don't feel the things he describes there. That's what sobriety is all about.
Keep up the good work.
Not silly at all. That's what AA is all about. AA isn't about not drinking. It's about learning how to live life to the fullest. I couldn't live life until I could learn to be comfortable in my own right. Learning to live life day to day, fullfilling responsibilities, being a decent human being; this is what AA offers. Read page 8 in the Big Book where Bill talks about the fourth dimension of existence. See if you don't feel the things he describes there. That's what sobriety is all about.
Keep up the good work.
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
Thank you Chy and Music
I am quite excited by the prospect of a sober holiday ! I plan on going to heaps of new meetings, and socialising with my AA friends , something I dont have time to do when I am working lol
HUGX
Lee
I am quite excited by the prospect of a sober holiday ! I plan on going to heaps of new meetings, and socialising with my AA friends , something I dont have time to do when I am working lol
HUGX
Lee
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
YAY! 6 months for (((Lee))) and (((Alice)))
I think that is wonderful! We all need to CELEBRATE!!
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Have a wonderful vacation Lee!! And keep doing what your doing, your doing great!! And you too Alice!
Love and ((Big hugs)) Bonni :mj
I think that is wonderful! We all need to CELEBRATE!!
:Have a wonderful vacation Lee!! And keep doing what your doing, your doing great!! And you too Alice!
Love and ((Big hugs)) Bonni :mj
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
Happy 5 months, 3 weeks, Lee!
Keep going on this way and you just might make it to 6 months!
Digitism circa during *my* 6 months:
I'm not as bad as I'd thought I'd be.
I'm not as good as I'd hoped I'd be.
But I am as perfect as I could be because
I am right where I am supposed to be.
Love, light, & insurmountable peace,
Digits
Keep going on this way and you just might make it to 6 months!
Digitism circa during *my* 6 months:
I'm not as bad as I'd thought I'd be.
I'm not as good as I'd hoped I'd be.
But I am as perfect as I could be because
I am right where I am supposed to be.
Love, light, & insurmountable peace,
Digits
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
Good Morning all!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Well, day 1 of my holidys was a doozy ! The 50th birthday party was a blast , in the tradition of AA, the food was magnificent and decadent ! Wonerful company, and lots of laughs . Nap in the evening , and then a meeting , ( jelly bean meeting) loThank you guys fir the thoughts , LOVE the poem Digits, TY
HUGX
Lee
Well, day 1 of my holidys was a doozy ! The 50th birthday party was a blast , in the tradition of AA, the food was magnificent and decadent ! Wonerful company, and lots of laughs . Nap in the evening , and then a meeting , ( jelly bean meeting) loThank you guys fir the thoughts , LOVE the poem Digits, TY
HUGX
Lee
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Re: Reflections of a sober me !
hooray Lee
i no longer find it strange to be grateful for all those little things i participate in today. I love being present. Love being here.
mackat
i no longer find it strange to be grateful for all those little things i participate in today. I love being present. Love being here.
mackat
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