New to the board I have 3 days
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New to the board I have 3 days
Hello all,
I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm trying again to get sober again. Today is my 3rd day. I've been around the halls for good portion of my adult life. I started coming around AA again about 2 months ago after a 5 year run. While my drinking isn't every day anymore I honestly can't say I'm sober with only 3 days but it's 3 days I didn't have last week. I actually reached out to an old AA friend Monday and explained how bad my drinking is effecting me. I'm sure your all aware of the old gamut.
I'm really what was once desribed to me as a "text book drunk". The Big Book of AA really fits me well. I no longer have the habit of drinking but the obsession. I get very intoxicated for many days, coming in and out of blackouts and pass outs. Just to start drinking again.
After my binges I get so horrible, fear grips me, DT's, sweets, my heart feels like It burst out of my chest, and all the not so nice effects of my drinking. Heck man you name it. Then I try and taper off with beer. Last time was a 5th a gin, 15 beers, with straight whiskey between the beers. I don't drink like that everyday but it's certainly not the exception. I hate the horror after coming out of a black out, it's so frightening! I don't really want to get into a drunk-a-log, just a brief description.
I guess today I feel OK. I get scared when I start to feel better sometimes, because that's when I'm prone to drink again, I'm about to call a friend who has been sober for over 20 years and go to a meeting with him.
By joining this group I want to have more contact with sober members. I guess you can't have to many sober hobbies. I want to find service jobs in my local AA as well.
I Just want to participate in this online forum. And perhaps get to know some of you.
Anyway just a friendly hello and introduction,
I just wanted to introduce myself. I'm trying again to get sober again. Today is my 3rd day. I've been around the halls for good portion of my adult life. I started coming around AA again about 2 months ago after a 5 year run. While my drinking isn't every day anymore I honestly can't say I'm sober with only 3 days but it's 3 days I didn't have last week. I actually reached out to an old AA friend Monday and explained how bad my drinking is effecting me. I'm sure your all aware of the old gamut.
I'm really what was once desribed to me as a "text book drunk". The Big Book of AA really fits me well. I no longer have the habit of drinking but the obsession. I get very intoxicated for many days, coming in and out of blackouts and pass outs. Just to start drinking again.
After my binges I get so horrible, fear grips me, DT's, sweets, my heart feels like It burst out of my chest, and all the not so nice effects of my drinking. Heck man you name it. Then I try and taper off with beer. Last time was a 5th a gin, 15 beers, with straight whiskey between the beers. I don't drink like that everyday but it's certainly not the exception. I hate the horror after coming out of a black out, it's so frightening! I don't really want to get into a drunk-a-log, just a brief description.
I guess today I feel OK. I get scared when I start to feel better sometimes, because that's when I'm prone to drink again, I'm about to call a friend who has been sober for over 20 years and go to a meeting with him.
By joining this group I want to have more contact with sober members. I guess you can't have to many sober hobbies. I want to find service jobs in my local AA as well.
I Just want to participate in this online forum. And perhaps get to know some of you.
Anyway just a friendly hello and introduction,
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Well congrats on the 3 days. The past will take care of it's self.. keep your feet firmly planted in the here and now today-living one day at a time and you will be just fine.. If I dwell on the future too much...My sponsor asks-Where are your feet right now ... And I tell her-I'm standing on them or on the floor and she says-good keep them there!
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Hang in there.You are moving in the right direction and reaching out for help.At this point each day is a precious miracle...even when it feels like this --> 
Help is here :help
phoenix aka Tinker
Help is here :help
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"If you're going through hell, keep going."
This quote from Winston Churchhill came to mind today
Anyways thanks all for your replies on my thread.
I got home from a meeting today. It was actually really good and felt...i guess you could say part of the group. I honestly can say I haven't felt that way in many years. There was even a new comer at the meeting.
This quote from Winston Churchhill came to mind today
Anyways thanks all for your replies on my thread.
I got home from a meeting today. It was actually really good and felt...i guess you could say part of the group. I honestly can say I haven't felt that way in many years. There was even a new comer at the meeting.
Welcome!
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Originally Posted by akfromwa 
Thanks everyone for posting.
Today started off pretty good then I started thinking about situation in my life I guess I'm resentful about.
Day 4 no alcohol!!!
Today started off pretty good then I started thinking about situation in my life I guess I'm resentful about.
Day 4 no alcohol!!!
Sounds like you've figured that out too...congrats on Day 4
phoenix aka Tinker
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