Getting caught up in words
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Getting caught up in words
I have developed a bad habit in my sobriety of getting caught up in the black and white of words. I know I am not alone in this. One such phrase that used to really bother me was when people said AA is a selfish program. I would often blast them during the meeting and talk about how my Big Book says that selfishness is the root of my troubles and how that sort of stuff they are saying cannot be reconciled with the program in the book. Then I read a letter from Bill:
I can see why you are disturbed…. The word ’selfish’ ordinarily implies that one is acquisitive, demanding, and thoughtless of the welfare of others. Of course, the A.A. way of life does not at all imply such undesirable traits.
What do these speakers mean? Well, any theologian will tell you that the salvation of his own soul is the highest vocation that a man can have. Without salvation - however we may define this - he will have little or nothing. For us in A.A. there is even more urgency.
If we cannot or will not achieve sobriety, then we become truly lost, right in the here and now. We are of no value to anyone, including ourselves, until we find salvation from alcohol. Therefore, our own recovery and spiritual growth have to come first - a right and necessary kind of self-concern.
I would lose the message because of a choice in words.
The good news is that the quality of my life is so high that I can spend time inventorying things like this and spend time working towards their removal. I find intolerance to be a very ugly defect. By societies standards I would be seen as a fairly open minded person. I do not suffer many of the hang-ups or prejudices I see in others. It can be easy for me to rest on my laurels and be content with where I am. Yet a single word said in a meeting can close my ears and heart to you. Oh, and coincidentally, I only learned I had this defect by seeing it in you, which brings me to another AA phrase I have hated:
Whenever you point the finger you have five pointing back at you
Ahh how the truth will set us free ( after it pi$$es me off!)
Which also leads me to believe that the character defects of others can actually serve me, and perhaps mine can serve you. Which is probably why meetings many would call sick AA, contemporary AA, Mainstream AA actually appeal to me. I learn alot about me and where I was and where I am going in those meetings.
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I can see why you are disturbed…. The word ’selfish’ ordinarily implies that one is acquisitive, demanding, and thoughtless of the welfare of others. Of course, the A.A. way of life does not at all imply such undesirable traits.
What do these speakers mean? Well, any theologian will tell you that the salvation of his own soul is the highest vocation that a man can have. Without salvation - however we may define this - he will have little or nothing. For us in A.A. there is even more urgency.
If we cannot or will not achieve sobriety, then we become truly lost, right in the here and now. We are of no value to anyone, including ourselves, until we find salvation from alcohol. Therefore, our own recovery and spiritual growth have to come first - a right and necessary kind of self-concern.
I would lose the message because of a choice in words.
The good news is that the quality of my life is so high that I can spend time inventorying things like this and spend time working towards their removal. I find intolerance to be a very ugly defect. By societies standards I would be seen as a fairly open minded person. I do not suffer many of the hang-ups or prejudices I see in others. It can be easy for me to rest on my laurels and be content with where I am. Yet a single word said in a meeting can close my ears and heart to you. Oh, and coincidentally, I only learned I had this defect by seeing it in you, which brings me to another AA phrase I have hated:
Whenever you point the finger you have five pointing back at you
Ahh how the truth will set us free ( after it pi$$es me off!)
Which also leads me to believe that the character defects of others can actually serve me, and perhaps mine can serve you. Which is probably why meetings many would call sick AA, contemporary AA, Mainstream AA actually appeal to me. I learn alot about me and where I was and where I am going in those meetings.
Thank you
this is a very good topic Steve and I have seen this very word pulled out and used in an actual selfish manner. There is a lot of misunderstanding around it at times.
One guy I know uses it often to do as he pleases and avoid chores at home.....saying this is a selfish program I have to look after me first. He was sitting in a room in his house playing meditating cd's as the children screamed in the kitchen and mum tried to cope!!
One guy I know uses it often to do as he pleases and avoid chores at home.....saying this is a selfish program I have to look after me first. He was sitting in a room in his house playing meditating cd's as the children screamed in the kitchen and mum tried to cope!!
Like when on an plane and they tell you to put your oxygen mask on before putting your child's one on, we can be of no use to anybody unless we put our recovery above all.
That doesn't mean you can sit in your room leaving your wife to cope with the kids though, lol.
That doesn't mean you can sit in your room leaving your wife to cope with the kids though, lol.
By societies standards I would be seen as a fairly open minded person. I do not suffer many of the hang-ups or prejudices I see in others. It can be easy for me to rest on my laurels and be content with where I am. Yet a single word said in a meeting can close my ears and heart to you.
I hear you Steve,
The letter of the law, has often been a stumbling block for me to have an actual experience with the spirit and intent behind a principle. I'm working on maintaining the integrity of the message, without being a tool in the process, currently my practice has been to watch my thoughts and motives whenever I am about to open my mouth. If they are not God given, using the absolutes of the OXford group as my litmus test I remain quiet.
I've learned God uses me as I am, not as I would like to be.
The letter of the law, has often been a stumbling block for me to have an actual experience with the spirit and intent behind a principle. I'm working on maintaining the integrity of the message, without being a tool in the process, currently my practice has been to watch my thoughts and motives whenever I am about to open my mouth. If they are not God given, using the absolutes of the OXford group as my litmus test I remain quiet.
I've learned God uses me as I am, not as I would like to be.
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I try to be, and sometimes fail, very careful in the manner in which I use words. Words are very important. So I tend to pick and choose what I'm going to say carefully. One word can change the meaning of an entire sentence, or maybe an entire message.
And yes, I am not immune to being annoyed when someone else uses a word or words that give a wrong impression or carry a false message. I don't really feel to bad about it.
And yes, I am not immune to being annoyed when someone else uses a word or words that give a wrong impression or carry a false message. I don't really feel to bad about it.
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I have seen this very word pulled out and used in an actual selfish manner. There is a lot of misunderstanding around it at times.
Rob,
You said tool and it made me laugh.
Thanks for that. I have to remember my own self righteousness. One quick glance at my past, even in sobriety ought to be enough to remind me of who I am.
He will perceive that his spiritual growth is lopsided, that for an average
man like himself, a spiritual life which does not include his family obligations may not be so perfect after all.
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using the absolutes of the OXford group as my litmus test
Love that! Its a shame too many people in the rooms nowadays don't even know that exists.
1. Absolute Honesty
2. Absolute Unselfishness
3. Absolute Purity
4. Absolute Love
Some great literature about the Oxford Group can be found at:
Stepstudy.org
Maybe this is an obvious statement... but looking at that litmus test can be intimidating or, depending on where a person is at, repellant, if the individual has not developed.... willingness.
???
Thanx Steve
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Hmmm, Steve. Guilty. Less guilty than I used to be, but still guilty. I'll even go one step farther and say that I can get annoyed by other people getting annoyed over a catch phrase that seemingly goes against our principles.
Over and over, I have to check my motives. Are they selfish or not? If what someone else says gets me on edge, it indicates a problem with my reaction to life. It indicates fear.
I'm thankful I get to keep growing as a person, guided by all the other people around me. Thanks for the topic.
Over and over, I have to check my motives. Are they selfish or not? If what someone else says gets me on edge, it indicates a problem with my reaction to life. It indicates fear.
I'm thankful I get to keep growing as a person, guided by all the other people around me. Thanks for the topic.
Originally Posted by keithj
If what someone else says gets me on edge, it indicates a problem with my reaction to life.
Ever since I experienced the 9th step promise:
"We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows"
My program is no longer selfish.
Ever since I experienced the 10th step promise:
"We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality—safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us."
My program is no longer about sobriety.
- All Big Book quotes from the 4th Edition -
"We will lose interest in selfish things and gain interest in our fellows"
My program is no longer selfish.
Ever since I experienced the 10th step promise:
"We feel as though we had been placed in a position of neutrality—safe and protected. We have not even sworn off. Instead, the problem has been removed. It does not exist for us."
My program is no longer about sobriety.
- All Big Book quotes from the 4th Edition -
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I'll even go one step farther and say that I can get annoyed by other people getting annoyed over a catch phrase that seemingly goes against our principles.
I am guilty of being the newcomer in meetings who takes things personally, when I felt as if someone was sharing "at" me in response to something I had said.
Lately I am guilty of sharing "at" people in response to something they had said.
Funny how that works.
I have been meditating lately about "stepping off the trigger" - i.e., not responding in a knee-jerk fashion when I have a reaction to something someone says.
Lately I am guilty of sharing "at" people in response to something they had said.
Funny how that works.
I have been meditating lately about "stepping off the trigger" - i.e., not responding in a knee-jerk fashion when I have a reaction to something someone says.
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Maybe this is an obvious statement... but looking at that litmus test can be intimidating or, depending on where a person is at, repellant, if the individual has not developed.... willingness.
Take what you want and leave the rest?
I hope you understand that I like that litmus test and try to incorporate it into my daily life... I am constantly getting in my own way though, but it is a standard to strive toward... And I was trying to make the connection in my own mind between the oxford group absolutes and the twelve steps....
I feel that those absolutes are impossible without first becoming entirely ready (willing) to ask God to remove our character defects... know what I mean???
Mark
I feel that those absolutes are impossible without first becoming entirely ready (willing) to ask God to remove our character defects... know what I mean???
Mark
Yes, After taking a seventh step I wondered why weren't they removed altogether at once(character dfcts). Ha Ha My sponsor said that with
that step we give god the good and the bad to remove and perfect in time. This makes me wonder when I do something wrong or more
particularly say something I shouldn't but without the bad intention. Is this actually helping the other person or giving the the
opportunity to transcend?
that step we give god the good and the bad to remove and perfect in time. This makes me wonder when I do something wrong or more
particularly say something I shouldn't but without the bad intention. Is this actually helping the other person or giving the the
opportunity to transcend?
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