Where To Find Help??
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Join Date: May 2012
Location: Vancouver, Washington
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Where To Find Help??
I have a unique compulsion and addiction but just as soul destroying as alcohol or drugs. I go on the same binges and suffer the same regrets and promises to myself to never do it again.
I believe even though it does not involve any intake of food or substance into my body I am so ill that I can hardly take care of myself. I was once a highly educated professional, an athlete - my wife and I spending all free time in vigorous outdoor recreation. We used to travel 4 months out of the year and I was OK functioning even though I have severe childhood wounds.
This past 5 years an old anxiety disorder surfaced as has my addiction (never really quit) but the more physically ill I became the more I did my addiction.
This must be bottom because I seldom leave my home - I am critically ill but nothing the doctors can find and I feel literally near death or if the pain does not stop I may have to chose that option.
I am near 100% dysfunctional and tortured
I have two therapist that I am working with but not getting anywhere
I need HELP !! I don’t totally fit the regular addiction forums but I need a friend and I need help to survive and find a way out of this - someone or ones who understand and have been to the bottom....I am pretty damn scared.
I believe even though it does not involve any intake of food or substance into my body I am so ill that I can hardly take care of myself. I was once a highly educated professional, an athlete - my wife and I spending all free time in vigorous outdoor recreation. We used to travel 4 months out of the year and I was OK functioning even though I have severe childhood wounds.
This past 5 years an old anxiety disorder surfaced as has my addiction (never really quit) but the more physically ill I became the more I did my addiction.
This must be bottom because I seldom leave my home - I am critically ill but nothing the doctors can find and I feel literally near death or if the pain does not stop I may have to chose that option.
I am near 100% dysfunctional and tortured
I have two therapist that I am working with but not getting anywhere
I need HELP !! I don’t totally fit the regular addiction forums but I need a friend and I need help to survive and find a way out of this - someone or ones who understand and have been to the bottom....I am pretty damn scared.
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Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: Proud Upstate New Yorker
Posts: 869
Hi TribalSpirit,
I am unclear on what your addiction is, however, I believe with the right support and addressing those childhood wounds, you can be healed.
I wish to send you lots of light and love.
Love,
Lily
I am unclear on what your addiction is, however, I believe with the right support and addressing those childhood wounds, you can be healed.
I wish to send you lots of light and love.
Love,
Lily
Member
Join Date: Feb 2012
Location: Orem UT
Posts: 312
Alanon Slogans and their Meanings...maybe some reading might help. Sorry about your struggles.
LET GO AND LET GOD
Every day there are decisions to be made and problems to be solved.
When you notice irritations growing into tensions, tensions into near-
panic,
and old fears returning, this is the time to stop short and turn to God.
You can do nothing anyway, and you will find that if
you supply the willingness He will supply the power.
FIRST THINGS FIRST
Many of our confusions and frustrations are due to our failure to deal with
tasks and problems in the order of their importance.
It does take discipline to put aside the things we'd rather do,
and attend to those of first importance FIRST.
But the rewards are great: we get things done,
we enjoy a sense of accomplishment, and we learn to face issues
with a real sense of value and purpose.
LIVE AND LET LIVE
This is a reminder that most of us need- often.
We need to make ourselves realize that we are not equipped to judge
or criticize others for what they are or do.
Our only concern should be our own conduct, our own improvement, our own
lives.
Each of us is entitled to his own view of things,
but we have no right to inflict it on anyone else.
If there are differences of opinion in your group,
try to treat them objectively.
EASY DOES IT
When we come into Al-Anon, burdened with problems and confusions,
we are confronted with a bright light of hope.
This may tempt us to try too hard to learn too quickly,
all there is to learn about the program.
"If we could only grasp the magic formula that is doing
so much for the others," we think.
But alas, it is not magic, but a philosophy of living, to be learned slowly
and patiently, and absorbed into our hearts and minds.
Easy does it. If you approach each meeting, each problem, each step,
in a relaxed frame of mind, what you need will come to you,
and much more quickly than if you strained and hurried.
Easy does it. Readjusting your life and changing old habits takes time,
and easy does it best.
BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD
It is well to remind ourselves, when we are resentful and embittered
over an alcoholic's behavior, that it was not his choice to
carry this burden of misery and despair.
But for the Grace of God, we might have been afflicted by this sickness.
Let us be thankful that we have the blessing of sobriety,
and be willing to help the alcoholic find this blessing, too.
One of the early things that I learned to do in Al-Anon is play a game
each night at bed time called the A. B. C. of Al-Anon Gratitude.
Just before you go to sleep start with the letter A
and think of something that you are grateful for.
(Example Al-Anon), and then go down the rest of the alphabet and name
something that starts with that letter.......
It will put you in a positive place and make you realize
how much you have to be grateful for....
After all these years we still play the game, God and I,
and it gives us a peaceful and serene sleep.......
Hope you will try it and see how much fun it really is........
We're never to old to play a game......
LET GO AND LET GOD
Every day there are decisions to be made and problems to be solved.
When you notice irritations growing into tensions, tensions into near-
panic,
and old fears returning, this is the time to stop short and turn to God.
You can do nothing anyway, and you will find that if
you supply the willingness He will supply the power.
FIRST THINGS FIRST
Many of our confusions and frustrations are due to our failure to deal with
tasks and problems in the order of their importance.
It does take discipline to put aside the things we'd rather do,
and attend to those of first importance FIRST.
But the rewards are great: we get things done,
we enjoy a sense of accomplishment, and we learn to face issues
with a real sense of value and purpose.
LIVE AND LET LIVE
This is a reminder that most of us need- often.
We need to make ourselves realize that we are not equipped to judge
or criticize others for what they are or do.
Our only concern should be our own conduct, our own improvement, our own
lives.
Each of us is entitled to his own view of things,
but we have no right to inflict it on anyone else.
If there are differences of opinion in your group,
try to treat them objectively.
EASY DOES IT
When we come into Al-Anon, burdened with problems and confusions,
we are confronted with a bright light of hope.
This may tempt us to try too hard to learn too quickly,
all there is to learn about the program.
"If we could only grasp the magic formula that is doing
so much for the others," we think.
But alas, it is not magic, but a philosophy of living, to be learned slowly
and patiently, and absorbed into our hearts and minds.
Easy does it. If you approach each meeting, each problem, each step,
in a relaxed frame of mind, what you need will come to you,
and much more quickly than if you strained and hurried.
Easy does it. Readjusting your life and changing old habits takes time,
and easy does it best.
BUT FOR THE GRACE OF GOD
It is well to remind ourselves, when we are resentful and embittered
over an alcoholic's behavior, that it was not his choice to
carry this burden of misery and despair.
But for the Grace of God, we might have been afflicted by this sickness.
Let us be thankful that we have the blessing of sobriety,
and be willing to help the alcoholic find this blessing, too.
One of the early things that I learned to do in Al-Anon is play a game
each night at bed time called the A. B. C. of Al-Anon Gratitude.
Just before you go to sleep start with the letter A
and think of something that you are grateful for.
(Example Al-Anon), and then go down the rest of the alphabet and name
something that starts with that letter.......
It will put you in a positive place and make you realize
how much you have to be grateful for....
After all these years we still play the game, God and I,
and it gives us a peaceful and serene sleep.......
Hope you will try it and see how much fun it really is........
We're never to old to play a game......
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