Trying.

I think I am just begining to find out what feels right for me and who feels right for me, but mainly its places....I do go back to old places to see if I can feel better there but then it dawns on me I don't want to go back.....its hard because I feel stuck between the old feelings I use to have about a place or person and the new feelings I am getting...I do feel a tad guilty also andn wonder why me? why do I not feel comfortable there anymore?...not sure what I'm rambling on about here..but just feel like I am in a new place and not sure exactly where I will end up when I land.

GingerM

Every day and every minute we are in a new place - you are just becoming aware of it. With any luck, you will have many more new places in your life. Different is not always bad.

DesertEyes

Hey there Trying

I've been there. Gone back to old places that had strong memories for me and found that _me_ was different. What it is for me is _growth_. I am becoming a better person, shaking off the old "emotional baggage" that used to define me.

In al-anon they use the butterfly to explain this. The butterfly starts out life as a catterpilar, and thru the program of recovery we also change from the catterpillar we used to be and become a butterfly.

You're growing "wings", Trying, and places where the caterpillar felt comfortable are no longer comfortable for us as "butterflies".

Welcome to recovery, Trying. It's a beautiful place full of clear air and gentle breezes. I think you're going to like it

Mike