ant to keep the friendship, yet I don't think the relationship is good for me right now. I have never been in this situation before. I read once that when a person's words and actions don't match it doesn't mean I am crazy, it means there's a discrepancy.
I think you are wise to take a big step back to see how this unfolds. You haven't closed and locked the door, you have just chosen to stand in a safer place.
Everyone's recovery is different, some get it without meetings or formal programs, others, like me, require help and guidance along the way and find a recovery program a big help.
I pray your friend is okay. However this unfolds, your own recovery will keep you strong.