I'd like to take this opportunity to introduce myself before I start bitchin' and moaning about my problems.
I'm Anthony, 25 years old, live in Queens NY, 5'10", weigh in at a skinny 130 lbs on a good day. I've been using all my life and started with the H about 4 years ago. Very happy to meet you all.
SO, I've been on Subs for about 6 months and god damn they are a Miracle Substance. It's interesting to read other people's experience on the stuff, whether it's depression, headaches, those old cravings sticking around. I get none of it. Not only does it improve my mood, gets rid of my depression/anxiety, it also makes my cravings nonexistent. (Reading these posts I have an understanding that rules are not set in stone and everyone's body works differently.) Anyone wondering if they should start Subs, I highly recommend it... except...
For some reason, no matter how much I taper, it's a miserable mother ******* experience. ******* chills, ******* goosebumps, ******* emotions getting exaggerated to all hell, anxiety, depression, shakes, runny nose, teary eyes, all the usual ******* bullshit. It's aggravating if you didn't notice from my unnecessary use of profanity. I'm sure that part of it is from me being a bitch, and I'm sure people on here have asked similar questions that people are tired of answering. BUT what am I missing here?
I live on a modest income in the most ridiculously expensive city, I don't have insurance and I buy my Subs from a "guy" and have no doctor to ask. I don't have good eating habits so I'm sure that's a part of it, but who has an appetite anyway. What can I do to make this a tiny bit easier, even if I'm just mindfucking myself into believing I'm "good". Are there vitamins that can help my brain understand, "This is a happy moment, BE HAPPY!" Is there a diet I can follow so I'm not all achy and actually maybe want to get out of bed. I know I sound like I'm whining and I apologize, I just want a normal life. There's people I want to meet, girls I want to lay, art I want to create, and my minds to filled with "OH NO I'M OUT OF SUBS LET ME USE A BAG JUST FOR TODAY!"
Ugh this is turning into a novel. Any advice is good advice. Honestly, just knowing I'm not alone in this makes me feel better already. Thanks in advance.