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Old 12-31-2012, 02:52 AM   #1 (permalink)
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Love and a slow painful death.

My Story:

I grew up in a loving middle class family. A good area of England, nice house and a good school. I had a large group of friends and lived a very healthy life style. I got a good job and in my twenties I travelled the world. I met a girl and married her. We had two healthy sons. We had a large house and everybody was proud of me. But I was drinking too much. But I did not want to stop.

My drinking was out of control. I lost my good job ( a manager for Mercedes-Benz ), my beautiful wife left me. I lost my sons. My large house was sold. My cars were gone. But I still drank to much. I moved away and got a new flat. I ran out of money and lost my flat.

I moved in with my parents. But started drinking even more. They had enougth and threw me out. My friends could not deal with me and my drinking. I ended up on the street for a week. I started drinking more. I moved in to a homeless hostel and stayed two and a half years.

Things got alot worst. I was told by doctors I was drink dependant. I started to **** myself, **** myself and black out all the time. I did not eat, but still got fat. My hair was long and had a beard. I did not wash and smelt all the time. My teeth started to rot and fall out. I fell over drunk and badly broke my leg. I ended up in hospital in a bad way. The doctors said I had been admitted to hospital 42 times in two years. Found blacked out. I was told my liver and kidneys were in a very bad state. My bones were crumberling and my eye sight was going to fall. If I did not stop drinking now I would be dead within a year and die a slow painful death. But I still kept drinking.

I loved drinking, It would never hurt me, It loved me

On the 31st October 2012 it was my 43rd birthday. I awoke at 7.am and drank a bottle of vodka for breakfast. My parents bought my sons round. They cried and got very upset. They left. I looked into the mirror and saw myself for the first time in twenty years. I was a ghost of a man. I swore I would never drink again. The next two weeks were hell. Shakes, sweats, seeing things, throwing up all the time and fitting. But I did it. I joined a goverment backed support group and now go three times aweek.

I am now two months sober. I had a great christmas with my family, my two sons included. I no longer want to drink or need to drink.
I have a new love in my life it's called a sober-life.

Thank you.
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Old 12-31-2012, 03:05 AM   #2 (permalink)
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woof. thanks for letting me know what's still out there waiting for me.
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Old 12-31-2012, 03:35 AM   #3 (permalink)
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English,

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so happy to hear of your sobriety. Congratulations on 2 months:day6
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Thanks for sharing English.
I moved your thread to Newcomers - more people will see it here

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Old 12-31-2012, 03:44 AM   #5 (permalink)
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excellent stuff, really happy to read this

well done and keep it up
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Well done English, keep it up. You are an inspiration.
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Old 12-31-2012, 03:51 AM   #7 (permalink)
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Your story almost made me cry. Keep up the good fight.
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You are part of our family now.
Its nice to have you with us.
There are quite a few of us from the Uk here.
I hope you post more xxxx
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Old 12-31-2012, 04:01 AM   #9 (permalink)
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love your post. Shows that there is always hope not matter what!
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Old 12-31-2012, 04:21 AM   #10 (permalink)
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Wow dude
That is moving. I kind of know about that. Thanks for being here.
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Thankyou for sharing your story with us English.

Congratulations on 2 months.

Wishing you well.
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Old 12-31-2012, 04:29 AM   #12 (permalink)
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wow-great thread english, keep up the great work
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Old 12-31-2012, 04:40 AM   #13 (permalink)
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Happy new English, keep fighting for your life and your sons..
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Wow! Keep it up! Every good wish for the new year!

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Well done on your two months.

Thank you for sharing your story with us. xxxx
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Thank you all for your kind posts. Have a great and happy new year.

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Congrats!!! It can be done and you are doing it
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I must add that SR has been a god send to me. The stories I read have helped me through the hard times and make me know I am not alone.

Thanks to you all.
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So glad you decided to live the sober life. Thank you so much for sharing your moving story. Wishing you nothing but happiness from here on in!
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Thank you, English.... we share similiar stories.. keep up the great work..
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