Love and a slow painful death.
 

My Story:

I grew up in a loving middle class family. A good area of England, nice house and a good school. I had a large group of friends and lived a very healthy life style. I got a good job and in my twenties I travelled the world. I met a girl and married her. We had two healthy sons. We had a large house and everybody was proud of me. But I was drinking too much. But I did not want to stop.

My drinking was out of control. I lost my good job ( a manager for Mercedes-Benz ), my beautiful wife left me. I lost my sons. My large house was sold. My cars were gone. But I still drank to much. I moved away and got a new flat. I ran out of money and lost my flat.

I moved in with my parents. But started drinking even more. They had enougth and threw me out. My friends could not deal with me and my drinking. I ended up on the street for a week. I started drinking more. I moved in to a homeless hostel and stayed two and a half years.

Things got alot worst. I was told by doctors I was drink dependant. I started to **** myself, **** myself and black out all the time. I did not eat, but still got fat. My hair was long and had a beard. I did not wash and smelt all the time. My teeth started to rot and fall out. I fell over drunk and badly broke my leg. I ended up in hospital in a bad way. The doctors said I had been admitted to hospital 42 times in two years. Found blacked out. I was told my liver and kidneys were in a very bad state. My bones were crumberling and my eye sight was going to fall. If I did not stop drinking now I would be dead within a year and die a slow painful death. But I still kept drinking.

I loved drinking, It would never hurt me, It loved me

On the 31st October 2012 it was my 43rd birthday. I awoke at 7.am and drank a bottle of vodka for breakfast. My parents bought my sons round. They cried and got very upset. They left. I looked into the mirror and saw myself for the first time in twenty years. I was a ghost of a man. I swore I would never drink again. The next two weeks were hell. Shakes, sweats, seeing things, throwing up all the time and fitting. But I did it. I joined a goverment backed support group and now go three times aweek.

I am now two months sober. I had a great christmas with my family, my two sons included. I no longer want to drink or need to drink.
I have a new love in my life it's called a sober-life.

Thank you.

woof. thanks for letting me know what's still out there waiting for me.

English,

Thank you so much for sharing your story. I am so happy to hear of your sobriety. Congratulations on 2 months:day6

Thanks for sharing English.
I moved your thread to Newcomers - more people will see it here :)

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excellent stuff, really happy to read this

well done and keep it up

Well done English, keep it up. You are an inspiration.

Your story almost made me cry. Keep up the good fight.

You are part of our family now.
Its nice to have you with us.
There are quite a few of us from the Uk here.
I hope you post more xxxx

love your post. Shows that there is always hope not matter what!

Wow dude
That is moving. I kind of know about that. Thanks for being here.
dub

Thankyou for sharing your story with us English.

Congratulations on 2 months.

Wishing you well.

wow-great thread english, keep up the great work

Happy new English, keep fighting for your life and your sons..

Wow! Keep it up! Every good wish for the new year!

W.

:c011: Well done on your two months.

Thank you for sharing your story with us. xxxx

Thank you all for your kind posts. Have a great and happy new year.

Kind Regards,

Congrats!!! It can be done and you are doing it

I must add that SR has been a god send to me. The stories I read have helped me through the hard times and make me know I am not alone.

Thanks to you all.

(((English)))

So glad you decided to live the sober life. Thank you so much for sharing your moving story. Wishing you nothing but happiness from here on in!

Thank you, English.... we share similiar stories.. keep up the great work..