Class of November Part 12
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If timzup were to check in sober today....It ould mean that all of our original bunch are sober!
I am soooooo grateful right now...I feel like even when we don't see any evidence of it....there is a connection in our little band of misfits here on the november thread....
It has sorta made me realize...it isn't about what we post here, or what we say to each other at a given time...there is something going on that goes beyond appearances.
ok...call me a cynical romantic or a sill goose....
I'm mental!
(and proud of it snirkle)
I am soooooo grateful right now...I feel like even when we don't see any evidence of it....there is a connection in our little band of misfits here on the november thread....
It has sorta made me realize...it isn't about what we post here, or what we say to each other at a given time...there is something going on that goes beyond appearances.
ok...call me a cynical romantic or a sill goose....
I'm mental!
(and proud of it snirkle)
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WOW!!!!!!
And i'm 53...snirkle...well...i'm 51...but i got 53 days
YouTube - West Side Story-I Feel Pretty
sorry...i'm just in a dance around the room mood today
And i'm 53...snirkle...well...i'm 51...but i got 53 days
YouTube - West Side Story-I Feel Pretty
sorry...i'm just in a dance around the room mood today
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Hi everyone, I've been resurrected! Sorry if I'm breaking whatever this nands 4-day rule is, I haven't quite figured that out yet 
Pixy I can't believe you have 77 days! I've never gotten that far, how does it feel by now? Have you had a lot of cravings? I'm so proud of you!!
I've been on and off the wagon as usual but am on at the moment and have been for over a week now. Cravings are starting to kick in though, oh how I hate the d*mn cravings! We've had some really great weather here the last few days so I've gotten out and about and done some gardening and such. Rain is supposed to be back tomorrow though. :P
Nands did you ever find out more about your temp job? That's so weird, even the star thinks so, see?
Pixy I can't believe you have 77 days! I've never gotten that far, how does it feel by now? Have you had a lot of cravings? I'm so proud of you!!
I've been on and off the wagon as usual but am on at the moment and have been for over a week now. Cravings are starting to kick in though, oh how I hate the d*mn cravings! We've had some really great weather here the last few days so I've gotten out and about and done some gardening and such. Rain is supposed to be back tomorrow though. :P
Nands did you ever find out more about your temp job? That's so weird, even the star thinks so, see?
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the 4-day Act has been repealed by executive order Colagirl...so no worries (snirkle)
jeez..remind me not to take 3 days off again..and then to top it off with too much fun and not enough work today....bad bad idea...
but thats ok i'm flyin high...got 3 rooms done for the week, 4 left that are in decent shape anyways...got some boxes of lenin sorted and away...
CG....why oh why do I have 3 closets full of clothes? I have a dresser and a chest of drawers and just bought another set......still not sure it will hold them all....
I feel like a pig
Sobriety is treating me fine this time...it's really amazing how different this has been...but...the 3 days off included that i didn't do my morning meditation for 3 days, and sorta sluffed off on my step work...
But i am fixing that by finishing the house by noon and spending the afternoon on my step work....but even more important is that i do my daily meditation...it's a huge part of my recovery, and also 1/3 of the treatment for my BPD problems...
I'm amazed at how well i'm handling the BPD abandonment/fear/delusional perception stuff...but along way to go with it...If i don't treat that aspect of my problems, I make little progress on my alchoholism...its like leaving the wieght baring wall out of the house
oops now i'm late to my BPD therapy.....
laters group :day6
jeez..remind me not to take 3 days off again..and then to top it off with too much fun and not enough work today....bad bad idea...
but thats ok i'm flyin high...got 3 rooms done for the week, 4 left that are in decent shape anyways...got some boxes of lenin sorted and away...
CG....why oh why do I have 3 closets full of clothes? I have a dresser and a chest of drawers and just bought another set......still not sure it will hold them all....
I feel like a pig
Sobriety is treating me fine this time...it's really amazing how different this has been...but...the 3 days off included that i didn't do my morning meditation for 3 days, and sorta sluffed off on my step work...
But i am fixing that by finishing the house by noon and spending the afternoon on my step work....but even more important is that i do my daily meditation...it's a huge part of my recovery, and also 1/3 of the treatment for my BPD problems...
I'm amazed at how well i'm handling the BPD abandonment/fear/delusional perception stuff...but along way to go with it...If i don't treat that aspect of my problems, I make little progress on my alchoholism...its like leaving the wieght baring wall out of the house
oops now i'm late to my BPD therapy.....
laters group :day6
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sigh....
my needs and my wants are in conflict....I think...I'm not even sure of that.....
I do know that when i don't want to talk to my sponsor about something..it's probably a good sign I need to....
I guess it's normal since I'm way deep in my expereince of step 1 that I wouldn't have much confidence in my ability to see things clearly... I don't have a lot of confidence in myself at the moment, but i've been told that I know the path I need to take, I just don't have the power to take the path....I'll get there but i feel like i'm in middle of a whirling karma storm...not good or bad..just is what it is...
As my sponsor told me....if your mind would lie to you about something as self destructive as alchoholism..what else is it lying to you about?
Got a lot to reflect on....
my needs and my wants are in conflict....I think...I'm not even sure of that.....
I do know that when i don't want to talk to my sponsor about something..it's probably a good sign I need to....
I guess it's normal since I'm way deep in my expereince of step 1 that I wouldn't have much confidence in my ability to see things clearly... I don't have a lot of confidence in myself at the moment, but i've been told that I know the path I need to take, I just don't have the power to take the path....I'll get there but i feel like i'm in middle of a whirling karma storm...not good or bad..just is what it is...
As my sponsor told me....if your mind would lie to you about something as self destructive as alchoholism..what else is it lying to you about?
Got a lot to reflect on....
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I don't want to blow your sponsor off but I actually think yu probably know exactly whats right for you Nands - it may not always be what you want tho....
Sometimes we need to bounce stuff off a few people to get rid of some static and get to the bare bones of it.
D
Sometimes we need to bounce stuff off a few people to get rid of some static and get to the bare bones of it.
D
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Hey all 
CG yeah the cravings were hard in the beginning. It's the moods I found harder and still do at times but nowhere near as much as I did. I feel amazing compared to how I was a few months ago.
Hello Dee
Nands is not kidding with the amount of clothes she has, her suit case arrived a lot later than she did when she came to visit, it needed a flight all on it's own
CG yeah the cravings were hard in the beginning. It's the moods I found harder and still do at times but nowhere near as much as I did. I feel amazing compared to how I was a few months ago.
Hello Dee
Nands is not kidding with the amount of clothes she has, her suit case arrived a lot later than she did when she came to visit, it needed a flight all on it's own
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er...yeah...would that be like dancing the 2 step, only in the 12 step shoe program you would dance the 12 steps????
1,2,3
4,5,6
7,8,9
10,11,12
click change (shoes)
1,2,3
4,5,6
7,8,9
10,11,12
click change (shoes)
......................:day6
1,2,3
4,5,6
7,8,9
10,11,12
click change (shoes)
1,2,3
4,5,6
7,8,9
10,11,12
click change (shoes)
......................:day6
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