I can't deal with this anymore the rejection is too painful am going to the hospital. am too broken.
Kitkat - You are absolutely never alone. We are real, living and breathing people who have forcebly had the wind knocked out of our sails (many multiple times) by people we loved and were devoted to. So much so that we thought that was the end for us. It's absolutely devastating. Devastating isn't even the word. Maybe I should say traumatizing. I don't believe a word exists to describe the pain it causes. You WILL make it through, but you very well might need help getting through. I am glad you are seeking that help. Please use what resources they have for you. Be open and honest with them, and ask questions. They will guide you. Don't be ashamed, afraid, or embarrassed. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Complacency and isolation are your enemies. You can do this! We're here with you!
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You are a really good person who has had all of your decency and kindness used to manipulate and exploit you. I don't care what he does for a living or how many languages he speaks, clearly he is most fluent in asshat and shame on his sorry butt.
You will get through this and someday you will look back and wonder why you ever cared. Sending you a big fierce hug.
P.S. So, are you making payments on that piano? Because you might want to let it be re-possessed...
You will get through this and someday you will look back and wonder why you ever cared. Sending you a big fierce hug.
P.S. So, are you making payments on that piano? Because you might want to let it be re-possessed...
You are a really good person who has had all of your decency and kindness used to manipulate and exploit you. I don't care what he does for a living or how many languages he speaks, clearly he is most fluent in asshat and shame on his sorry butt.
You will get through this and someday you will look back and wonder why you ever cared. Sending you a big fierce hug.
P.S. So, are you making payments on that piano? Because you might want to let it be re-possessed...
You will get through this and someday you will look back and wonder why you ever cared. Sending you a big fierce hug.
P.S. So, are you making payments on that piano? Because you might want to let it be re-possessed...
Kitcat, I have a philosophy that has stood the test of time here...the difference between a bad day and a good day is usually about two days.
Today will be better, tomorrow even more so. Trust the process, trust that you have the courage and stamina to keep going. One day the sun will shine again, I promise.
Hugs
Today will be better, tomorrow even more so. Trust the process, trust that you have the courage and stamina to keep going. One day the sun will shine again, I promise.
Hugs
I got dumped by someone I loved dearly. yeah, she had faults, but her qualities overshadowed them. then one day she dumped me. her reason seemed pretty weird to me and I asked a couple people what they thought. those people all said it was a copout and there was something deeper goin on with her.
it took me quite some time to get it from my head to my heart that her reason and opinion weren't true and didn't define who I was. it took time for me to love myself (again!!) and be ok.
about 2 years later,out of the blue, she called me. made amends and asked to meet for coffee.
HELL NO!!!!
why? because I was ok with who I was and reaaallllllly started likin the single life. not because I could go date who I wanted, but because I was free to do whatever whenever wherever.
from the time she dumped me to the time I was ok with it, there were some pretty rough days- just a wee bit of low self esteem and feelings of worthlessness. believe it or not, just a wee bit of anger showed up,too( yeah, that's a lie- it was a LOT of anger).
so, then one day, after some time, I was sittin havin some breakfast with a good friend. just talkin abouth this,that, and the other. then he says,"its good to see ya get through the grieving and are even stronger and more confident in yourself."
it took me quite some time to get it from my head to my heart that her reason and opinion weren't true and didn't define who I was. it took time for me to love myself (again!!) and be ok.
about 2 years later,out of the blue, she called me. made amends and asked to meet for coffee.
HELL NO!!!!
why? because I was ok with who I was and reaaallllllly started likin the single life. not because I could go date who I wanted, but because I was free to do whatever whenever wherever.
from the time she dumped me to the time I was ok with it, there were some pretty rough days- just a wee bit of low self esteem and feelings of worthlessness. believe it or not, just a wee bit of anger showed up,too( yeah, that's a lie- it was a LOT of anger).
so, then one day, after some time, I was sittin havin some breakfast with a good friend. just talkin abouth this,that, and the other. then he says,"its good to see ya get through the grieving and are even stronger and more confident in yourself."
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Hey Kitkat I hope you are hanging on with everything you've got. I remember going through that pain; I honestly did not think a human could experience so much pain and survive. My goal everyday was to not call him and not shoot myself. If things were really bad I would just make a goal to get through the next 15 minutes.
If I had a choice between going through that pain or being beaten into a bloody pulp, I would choose the physical beating.
Stay close to us and anyone else who can help, support or empathize. Each day you get through brings you closer to healing.
If I had a choice between going through that pain or being beaten into a bloody pulp, I would choose the physical beating.
Stay close to us and anyone else who can help, support or empathize. Each day you get through brings you closer to healing.
Sweetie-some of the hardest times I have ever gone through have driven me to my knees in prayer. . . . and God has never turned His back on me when I call out in my heartache and despair. Call on Him and I will pray for you that He will send His mighty Angels to your aid. I can't see them, but I know they are there and they've helped me get through some pretty tight spots.
Somebody's Praying (for you)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHtWhnZU2Xo
Somebody's Praying (for you)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHtWhnZU2Xo
So glad you chose to go to the hospital-I've had to do that and last summer, when I had to go to ER, the physician was so kind-I told him that I didn't know why I felt the need to go to the hospital...and he simply said--you needed to know that someone cared...and then we talked for a while and it was so healing.
You are a wonderful person. Drugs change a person and whoever they might have been once is not who they are now. The person and anyone who truly cares about them becomes a slave to that need.
Prayers are going up for you and that you receive kindness from complete strangers (angels), that people come out of the woodwork to care and be kind, to reintroduce you into a better world...and to show you that you (having shown so much strength by going to the hospital when things were the worst)
are a wonderful, beautiful work of creation...and that you can take the steps that are yours to take in your own way and time, with the support of people who are capable of caring.
You are a wonderful person. Drugs change a person and whoever they might have been once is not who they are now. The person and anyone who truly cares about them becomes a slave to that need.
Prayers are going up for you and that you receive kindness from complete strangers (angels), that people come out of the woodwork to care and be kind, to reintroduce you into a better world...and to show you that you (having shown so much strength by going to the hospital when things were the worst)
are a wonderful, beautiful work of creation...and that you can take the steps that are yours to take in your own way and time, with the support of people who are capable of caring.
I am so thankful for everyone on here. I féel like now I see the truth abit more clearly. I was myself nor a healthy person to stay in that relationship but it's almost like he had a hold or some kind of spell on me. I also know hé is still using I am so glad that I walked away and I want to be à healthy person again on my own. I see now how I was used for financial reasons ans I see how he is doing the same ro this new girl. drug addicts are predators ans they know how to get you in their hold. M'y êyes have been opened to so much. I just didn't want to see it because I was so blinded by my love. never again. I just hope that one day he will see the truth. this other woman is no better than me. I'd she dosnt get out the same thing will happen to her. people on crack are incapable of lo e. I see it now!!!
How's it going KitKat? I know it feels shaky right now. Don't feel like you have to be tough. Cast your cares on Him and us. We're here for you....
Can't Shake Jesus.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=topnP4vcUHQ
Can't Shake Jesus.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=topnP4vcUHQ
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