sherbear5104

Time for me to take an honest look at my life. I have been fooling myself into believing that I can smoke pot. I have used all kinds of excuses to allow myself to believe it will cause me no harm. Well, reality slapped me in the face the other night. See, because I smoke pot, I still hang out with people who use my doc- coke. The other night, I made a bad choice. I don't want to go down that road again. I don't want to live like that. This is why I am telling on myself. It is not ok to use any drug. I am an addict. There is no doubt about it. One is too many and a thousand never enought. So far today, I have not smoked anything. I have been hanging out here until I have to go to work tonight. I went to a meeting last night. I know what I have to do. Just for today.

Sherry

Luckyv2

(((((Sherry)))))

Yep that is so right a drug is a drug is a drug LOL>>I know even for me I don't even take asprins etc. I might go alittle over board with all of this sometimes but I have too. I have two crushed disks in my back and the pain is terrible sometimes. I can go to the doctor and get some really good stuff but I don't like the way that it feels so I don't take anything. I guess what it all comes down to for me is living life on lifes terms and that is so hard for me to do.

I can be addicted to anything that takes that void out of my soul, shopping, sex, eating, so I have to be real careful to see what my motives are and if it is infact self will or my HP's will. I am sending good thoughts to you and am proud of you for what you are so trying to do..

Love Vic

sherbear5104

You are so right about being addicted to anything. Anything that fills that void. That has been a problem. It's actually taking a complete 3rd step that I get stuck on. I don't want to give him my will. I think I do, but when it comes down to it, I do a half a$$ job with it. Before I picked up the pot, I picked up a relationship. We both relapsed. That was no longer filling the void. I need to turn my will over. Completely and honestly. Thanks for listening Vic. Just for today, I will not use.

Sherry

Luckyv2

((((((Sherry))))))

We don't have to give him/her our will we just turn our will over to the CARE of God as we understand him/her. It doesn't say that we don't have our own will we just try to line our will up with his I think LOL I know that it will be ok just remember rule 62 "Don't be so damn hard on yourself"

Love VIc

sherbear5104

Thanks Vic. Rule 62. I won't be so hard on myself!!!! I need to love myself, right?

godsonmyside

See not too long ago I was in Niagra Falls at the Regional Convention. It was a good time too.
Peace,
Todd J.

sherbear5104

Too bad I was on a mission. We could have met there! It would be cool to meet someone from here, face to face.