Dee74

last part here:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rt-2-a-21.html

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Angie247

Thank you so much, Dee.

Upward2Enlightenment

Yay angie, part 3

Angie247

I'm in a lot of pain now. Not drinking. There's no alcohol in the house. I just don't understand my son's father. I asked him if he could pick up our son Tuesday night so I could work 6am to 6pm the following Wednesday for a little extra money for overtime. He won't. He's tired. Our son's school is within walking distance of his house. He goes to work at 9 that day and Alex goes to school at 8. Does he not understand I'm asking for him to pick up my son at night and I will lose that night with my son? I would never feel right about waking my son up at 5am and his dad wouldn't do that either. My son's rest is more important. Today was supposed to be his day with our son and he was out of town for work so I scheduled earlier in the week to be an hour late at work today so I could take my baby to school. I didn't argue when he told me. I don't have much left. I just don't understand and I am so tired.

I'm sorry to complain. I think I just need to go to sleep. I'm picking up my son sober tomorrow. Goodnight.

CaseyW

Goodnight Angie. I hope tomorrow is a better day for you.

Angie247

Thank you, Casey. I'm sorry to vent but I was just frustrated. I'm better now. I'm sorry.

CaseyW

You don't ever need to apologize for venting here! Not keeping that stuff bottled up is part of recovery.

I wish I had a good solution for you on this particular problem. Maybe you can nicely try to ask/explain the situation again tomorrow. Seems only fair that you helped him out with his work situation so he should be able to help with yours.

Anyways, nothing you can do about it right this second. Don't let your husband live rent-free in your head tonight. Give good ol' Elvis a scratch behind the ears or on his belly or whatever his preference is for me. I've got to head to bed myself. Have an 11 or 12 hour work day of my own tomorrow.

Angie247

Thank you Casey, for everything. I hope you have a good day at work tomorrow, that is a very long day. You've been so kind to me. Thank you.

Angie247

I just don't know what to do anymore. I am just very sad. I'm not drinking and I won't. I need to work on things to make life happier. It's just hard sometimes. I think I need to go to sleep now. I'm sorry. Goodnight.

Dee74

I know I've said this a few times Angie but I really think you need to build a life for yourself.

I know you miss your son terribly when he's not there - and thats understandable... but maybe if you had other things to do, or sober friends to hang with, these times might not be that devastating for you?

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Angie247

Dee, I really understand that. I truly do. I appreciate all your kindness and your support to me always. I have to be at my job 40 hours a week and I have my son with me usually Sunday thru Thursday. It's just this week that is different. I know what you're saying. I will be picking up my son tomorrow but next Friday after work I'll go to an AA meeting. I should have gone today.

Angie247

Awake and sober. About to go get my son.

CaseyW

Have a wonderful Saturday, Angie. I love the new avatar. It looks full of hope, walking towards a better future!

Angie247

Thank you, Casey. Have a great weekend! That's my son and our sweet basset hound years ago at my parents place.

Angie247

Alex and I just got back and I announced to Elvis who was on the recliner that his brother was back. Elvis jumped down to greet him. My son is always concerned if Elvis is happy by hearing his purring and it made his day to hear Elvis purring to him. . I love moments like this.

Angie247

My ex husband just sent me a series of texts telling me how hard his life is and how I make it worse. I blocked his text messages. He can still call me but I don't need to deal with that tonight. I'm okay. I'm not using him as an an excuse to drink. I have my son so that's not an option.

Dee74

I'm sorry about that Angie. Blocking the texts is the right thing to do

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Angie247

Thank you, Dee. I didn't engage with him although I have plenty of times in the past. I told him that I was blocking him from texting because I wanted a nice Saturday night with my son. I'm about to make pork chops, Mac and cheese and steamed carrots. Alex took a nap so I'm starting supper later but it won't take long. The pork chops are defrosted. Alex is playing club penguin and I'm about to make him a nice meal. Elvis is next to me being as sweet as ever. He comes up to me and rubs his face against mine. I'm very lucky to have my two boys.

Upward2Enlightenment

Pay the ex no mind Angie. It's not your fault that his life is hard.

Enjoy the weekend with both your boys.

Angie247

Just want to check in. Doing well. . Eating lunch with Alex, he's having a grilled chicken sandwich, pop chips and baby carrots with apple slices and caramel for dessert and I'm having a BBQ sandwich. Simple lunch but good. Happy to be present and sober. Have a good day everyone.