Truthseeker11

Driving in my car the sun shining brightly, it’s that time. Something is wrong here. We can’t cope with life without this, just this one right now. It says oh look you just passed the bar, you know it’s just what people do, what YOU do, how will you go home and deal with this, you can’t!

Shut up AV I tell it. Then I go buy a coke then eat a big bag of baby carrots while I let this suffering pass through me. And the suffering is my life, the suffering isn’t even the alcohol I’m missing. The suffering has always been there. The alcohol was just a mask. This hurts. I pray to get through this. Day 2 and depression is setting in, is this normal? But, I’m making it. Day 3 next. Screw you booze.

kevlarsjal2

Well done on resisting the bar! I think it's pretty normal that depression kicks in in early recovery. In many cases it gets better after a few days or weeks. If it persists, I'd recommend talking to a doctor or therapist about it.

I had it too this feeling of life = suffering. The good thing is, when sober, we no longer have to run from that pain but we can deal with it and work on getting better. It's tough but it is worth it in the long run. Keep going, you're strong!

DeeLiz

“Screw you booze” ... I love it. Keep up the good work, it will only have positive results. I know it’s hard. Keep pushing!

Dee74

Things get a lot better than they were today truthseeker - hang in there

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Delilah1

Nicely done today, it really does get easier.

D122y

Truth,

I have continually healed and gotten stronger with each moment.

I still suffer but my future is on a normal trajectory.

I am no longer suffering from physical addiction.

We should never get physically addicted to anything again. In order to get addicted I have to start the process.

Not doing that ever again.

I am so different these days. Everything is better.

Thanks.

least

Stay sober. It will get better, but only if you stay sober.

PalmerSage

Good for you for resisting the urge (the baby carrots, though...you can do better than that! )

teatreeoil007

Good job telling the AV off!....and choosing baby carrots instead!!

TeeJayVerm

I chose popcorn.

I hardly had an AV whisper then all of the sudden I starting thinking about the long term and got intimidated. Thankfully, that has passed.

Now I know why they say "One day at a time."