Tinker B

I'm recently diagnosed with Aspergers which explains a lot of my anxieties... shopping centres scream at me with their lights and noise
people are tricky for me
I never know what to say without interrupting and saying the wrong thing but having said that have learnt to read people to the point of getting by..
I have had some sober time with the help of SR and counselling but to be honest I'm back where I started
I just needed to jot this down so thank you for listening

Tinker B

is anyone there?

Tinker B

Doesn't matter

Princessofhope

Hello! I have read your post and didn't want to pass without commenting. Having a diagnosis must be hard to come to terms with.have you got a friend or family member that will help you to practise social skills?

D122y

Jessie,

I'm here.

Imo..booze causes brain damage so any preexisting issues I have...get multiplied.

I am pretty clean the days and I see a difference.

My feelings and decisions are real. 100%.

Knowing that, I have been growing as a person mentally.

Last night I went to my old gym. I hadn't been there in a while.

I want to sign up again.

I saw my old coaches.It was awkward, but it was real.

My coaches took a while to warm up to me, but I could sense things were going to be ok.

That is what being clean does for me.

I get the full benefit of all my humanity. Booze and other drugs stifle that.

Get clean friend.

Thanks.

Tinker B

I do and he understands more now

Tinker B

I appreciate that friend

Tinker B

It's the mind clutter I have troubles with when i don't drink

Tinker B

If I'm not overthinking I'm counting and or playing music in my head
Very Aspergers but damn

Tinker B

I t must have taken a lot for you to go there last night
I appreciate your response
Truly

Tinker B

I wonder if I m on the wrong forum

Nonsensical

Me, too, although I don't have Apsbergers. Just ADHD.

I make a lot of lists and try to eat well. Also just being aware helps. One doc offered me meds, but I am holding out. I'd rather exhaust my non-med options before trying the meds. That seems like a last resort to me.

What are you doing to keep the mind clutter down?

Tinker B

I do so appreciate your response
I've had counselling but to be honest it's wine that I go back to to quiet the head and then the remorse and feeling crap the next day

Tinker B

Sorry to take your time friends
It's my battle I know
Thank you

Nonsensical

My drinking prevented me from finding a real solution for my head racket a long long time. Decades.

If I had a magic wand I would wave it and make it so you could feel better without the wine. Unfortunately, you're gonna have to figure out how to get by without the wine on your own.

What's the next step?

I did not empower you to TAKE my time. I GIVE it of my own accord.
Definitely your battle.
Fighting it alone is optional, and most of us do not recommend it.

TYG2

Jessie73 I worked with a great fellow at a major Hotel chain, he was a porter and drove the Hotel guest van. I had no clue he has Aspergers he was really the only one who put me at ease. Great sense of humor. I lasted 3 months and quit due to my desire to drink rather than work. When he told me he suspected I had a drinking problem I was floored. BUT then he said he had Aspergers and drinking just made it 100 times worse as he was on mood stabilizing drugs. We had many conversations during down time and he was more intelligent than any co-worker or supervisor there. I thank God he knew enough to quit drinking. He is an inspiration to me.

I'll pray for you..
Glad you found us.
BTW classmates Aspergers syndrome equals a higher IQ than alot of us. It's just difficulty in social situations (sound familiar? )

Tang

I can only offer this. I work with someone who has Aspergers. He managed to work through to getting a PhD. In fact, he is one of the most impressive people I have ever been blessed to know. I wish you the best in your journey.

nigey1

I hear you and can really relate to the mind clutter. No alcohol really seems to turn the volume up too eh

biminiblue

I used alcohol to shut up my overthinking/over-analyzing mind, too.

At some point it turned on me and not only stopped working for that but made it worse whenever I had to abstain for more than 15 hours or so.

I am so glad to be out of that spinning mind trap.

Keep talking to us, that's what this site is all about, we're glad you're here!

Dee74

You're very welcome here Jessie
I took the night off last night tho

I'm not on the aspie spectrum but you netter believe my brain goes at 100 mph, That was one of the reasons I started to drink - for respite from that.

When I got sober I had to deal with it again - it was hard for a while because I'd made it something to be scared of in my mind...but over time, not drinking at it, I kinda got used to it.

I make sure my brain has a lot to do these days and I doesn't bother me much at all now - in fact to be honest I like it now and I'd miss it if it stopped.

Give recovery a chance - you might be surprised how you feel about things in a few weeks time?

D