Class of April 2015
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Join Date: Mar 2014
Location: Western New York
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Hoping to join your class! I stayed sober for almost 3months in the September 2014 class. I had a slip up at thanksgiving last year and then fell back into drinking at Christmas. Once I started again I wasn't able to maintain the drinking limits I wanted and I'm back to drinking at dangerous levels.
Hoping to catch up reading about the rest of the class later today. Glad to be a part. :-)
Hoping to catch up reading about the rest of the class later today. Glad to be a part. :-)
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Join Date: Feb 2012
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Rudy,,
Whatever happens just pick yourself up and get back on. Eventually it will stick, you'll get some time together and you'll see that you can do it.
I'm sure all of us have given up drinking every morning........I know I have.
Whatever happens just pick yourself up and get back on. Eventually it will stick, you'll get some time together and you'll see that you can do it.
I'm sure all of us have given up drinking every morning........I know I have.
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Join Date: Aug 2009
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Up early on the morning of day 11.
Again finishing work last night I had massive cravings and again while having my evening meal they went away without me even noticing.
I'm not sleeping well either the last few nights but I'm not tired the next day. I had my first drinking dream last night and boy did I let myself down; I still feel guilty. In the dream I remember being in a restaurant and having a clear choice of whether to actually drink or not. I drank. I know it's only a dream but says a lot about my subconscious.
Stay strong.
Again finishing work last night I had massive cravings and again while having my evening meal they went away without me even noticing.
I'm not sleeping well either the last few nights but I'm not tired the next day. I had my first drinking dream last night and boy did I let myself down; I still feel guilty. In the dream I remember being in a restaurant and having a clear choice of whether to actually drink or not. I drank. I know it's only a dream but says a lot about my subconscious.
Stay strong.
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Join Date: Mar 2015
Location: Christchurch, New Zealand
Posts: 10
Today is the start of Day 3 for me and I would like to join the April class, coming all the way from New Zealand. I have been a daily heavy drinker, blacking out each weekend night, but maintaining a family and high stress job somehow....but would only have been a matter of time of I kept going. I would appreciate it if anyone can please help with recommending a thread or article on how to communicate the complexities of alcoholism to someone who has never drunk to excess. My lovely, forgiving but very frustrated wife has stuck with me so far but I fear that she will eventually leave if I don't stop, having seen me at my worst and heard all the promises before. I know the best way forward is to prove over time that I can do it, but I need to be able to discuss it properly with her. I need to do it for my kids who I love so much and of course I need to do it fr myself too, before I ruin everything I hold precious. I am the only one who can make the change in my life and I accept this. Every journey begins with a single step, and given the infinite length of the journey ahead, I will focus on one step at a time.
I have survived two days by spending each evening reading SR posts which have given me the resolve to make it through the night. The constant reinforcement that alcoholism is a progressive disease and that the only option is complete sobriety is a message that I need to reflect on every day.
I would like to express my gratitude to the moderators and regular posters such as Dee, for their generosity in responding to so many of us with wisdom that comes from their experience.
Looking forward to the end of the nausea, anxiety, headaches and sweats that have come with these first two days - I know this time will pass and I look forward with confidence to future happiness.
Pleased to have others to share with and and learn from.
I have survived two days by spending each evening reading SR posts which have given me the resolve to make it through the night. The constant reinforcement that alcoholism is a progressive disease and that the only option is complete sobriety is a message that I need to reflect on every day.
I would like to express my gratitude to the moderators and regular posters such as Dee, for their generosity in responding to so many of us with wisdom that comes from their experience.
Looking forward to the end of the nausea, anxiety, headaches and sweats that have come with these first two days - I know this time will pass and I look forward with confidence to future happiness.
Pleased to have others to share with and and learn from.
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Join Date: Apr 2015
Location: Toronto, Ontario
Posts: 12
Trying again in April
Hey, I have been trying to quit drinking since I turned 28, October of last year, and I thought moderation would work for me but it never does. I have come to hate drinking and the person it has made me become and the hurt it has caused people who truly care about me.
Since my birthday, I haven't been able to get 1 month under my belt before relapsing. The hard part for me is that when I relapse, I have a really hard time just resetting my goal, and instead go on 1-2 week benders, literally killing myself. It takes a lot of hard work to try again, and this is what happened to me on March 29th. The most I think I went is 21 days last November, and then 17 days starting March 12th, but I went to a party I should have avoided and had 1 beer. I was drinking coke in the beginning, but just seeing everyone around me with their drinks, my brain tricked me as it always does. Then I thought okay, I can moderate, I can do this, I'll have a couple more, and as long as I don't drink more than 4 (the recommended moderation limit), I will be happy. I ended up drinking 9 beers and a pint that night.
Since my relapse in March, I have been drinking everyday, and I feel really sick and don't know how I manage to hold onto life sometimes. I tried to wean off on April 3rd for my mom's birthday (she turned 68), but I drank past mid-night and my obsessive compulsive disorder never lets me stop drinking if I have already drank that day. I want to try and quit again on April 10th, which is my dad's birthday. He will be turning 69, and hopefully by that time next year, it will have been the greatest gift I ever gave to my parents.
thanks for listening.
Since my birthday, I haven't been able to get 1 month under my belt before relapsing. The hard part for me is that when I relapse, I have a really hard time just resetting my goal, and instead go on 1-2 week benders, literally killing myself. It takes a lot of hard work to try again, and this is what happened to me on March 29th. The most I think I went is 21 days last November, and then 17 days starting March 12th, but I went to a party I should have avoided and had 1 beer. I was drinking coke in the beginning, but just seeing everyone around me with their drinks, my brain tricked me as it always does. Then I thought okay, I can moderate, I can do this, I'll have a couple more, and as long as I don't drink more than 4 (the recommended moderation limit), I will be happy. I ended up drinking 9 beers and a pint that night.
Since my relapse in March, I have been drinking everyday, and I feel really sick and don't know how I manage to hold onto life sometimes. I tried to wean off on April 3rd for my mom's birthday (she turned 68), but I drank past mid-night and my obsessive compulsive disorder never lets me stop drinking if I have already drank that day. I want to try and quit again on April 10th, which is my dad's birthday. He will be turning 69, and hopefully by that time next year, it will have been the greatest gift I ever gave to my parents.
thanks for listening.
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Join Date: Apr 2015
Location: UK
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Hang on in the ignatious... things can take a while. Dont ever give up hope, you can do it. There is evidence throughout these threads...
I am in a similar position with social stuff, eg parties... I guess for a while I need to socialise different and avoid the situations until I am strong enough to go to these things as a sober alcoholic.
I am in a similar position with social stuff, eg parties... I guess for a while I need to socialise different and avoid the situations until I am strong enough to go to these things as a sober alcoholic.
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Join Date: Dec 2013
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*Shyly coming in the room*. I'm on Day One and I feel pretty good today moodwise. I am going to an AA mtg in a bit and I'm bringing my own attendance slip that I downloaded online! Its not required I am just doing it for myself and also in hopes it will help me get into a Sober living household.
I found out that because of the frequency of my drinking is has been about once a week that I probably wouldn't qualify for inpatient treatment at a center and most likely be referred to outpatient however there are no places to get that around me for many miles. In any case I plan on making this my full-time job. Thanks everyone.
I found out that because of the frequency of my drinking is has been about once a week that I probably wouldn't qualify for inpatient treatment at a center and most likely be referred to outpatient however there are no places to get that around me for many miles. In any case I plan on making this my full-time job. Thanks everyone.
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Join Date: Jun 2010
Location: "In Every Climb and Place"
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Welcome nmd ! Rudy, Rudy, Rudy, It's OK Rudy. One of the most destructive thoughts we have as humans is Perfectionism. It holds us back from actually getting all the way done with much in life. It may hold us back from even trying to do something because we feel we have to do it perfectly. Sometimes we just have to "fail our way to success."
Perfectionism tears our self-esteem apart. We all have trouble reaching our goals sometimes. That is OK, we are all human. We all have been there at one point or another. What's important is what the many say, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and try, try again. Never give up Rudy, Never give up. One moment, one day at a time. We are going to kick this affliction.
Perfectionism tears our self-esteem apart. We all have trouble reaching our goals sometimes. That is OK, we are all human. We all have been there at one point or another. What's important is what the many say, we must pick ourselves up, dust ourselves off and try, try again. Never give up Rudy, Never give up. One moment, one day at a time. We are going to kick this affliction.
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On another thought, I'm having a terrible day. Have you ever looked at your Horoscope and its exactly what your going through? What's that all about. I have been hyper all day. My work had me hyper, I get home and news has me hyper, I think the booze I drank this past weekend has turned into sugar and it has me hyper, this dang computer has me hyper. Even running can make me hyper. Help! I need some dang quiet time please. Just drank me a watermelon smoothy, hoping it helps. Have any suggestions on what you "Awesome Aprils" do to chill? Thanks.
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Ignatious, relapses certainly can take the wind out if your sails and make you rethink goals. Best advice I can give is not to wait for your Dad's birthday, why not quit now and celebrate sober? 
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Goose1, I used to try to find hobbies and activities to keep busy to "relax", but I just end up more stressed out. Best thing I've learned its to give myself permission to just do nothing sometimes. TV, walks, having a cup of coffee, nothing ambitious. The laundry and projects and bills will all wait for me.
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