Luckyv2

Isolation is my enemy yet I find myself in the territory a whole lot more than ever. It seem like I am always isolating in recovery this time. I have never seen myself withdrawal so much in my entire life. Usually when I used I would never use a lone. But now I find myself always isolating.

nutz

At least you're honest about it.
I'm just going through this, I'm a privite person stage.
What... you don't a least go to meetings to do the 13 step either.lol
When your sponsor makes you date or ask girls out, you know
you have it bad.lol

The funni thing is , I don't feel alone. Yet, when I was running
around bar hoping. When I was gambling, it was the worst
I felt alone in a room full of thousands and thousands of peaple
with all the noise.

It's borderline for me. I don't like being around peaple for too lone.
Actaully, around adults. Just too mush BS for me.

It's one of my liablilties and also a trait for being in an abusive
relationship. Yet, I'm every women's dream of what a husband
would do. Stay home. Yeap totally backwards from my wild partying
dayz. But we're extreemist...yes ???

Oki doki...I went outside today. It was beautiful

REZ

There's a saying...an addict alone is in bad company. I try to do something every day to get connected with people in recovery. I don't go to meetings every day but I do use the phone. Try to make it a goal to talk to at least one recovering addict each day.

Luckyv2

I forced myself out this evening to a meeting, then I found myself there listening and of course here I am judging and I have no reason to judge. Close minded yep that is where I was but actually I did hear somethings that helped, found myself out a friends house after the meeting until now which is good.

I don't know if I need to figure it out but I have an appointment with a psychiatrist tomorrow morning and yet I am totally against this. I feel as if I can live a pretty decent life without any help from anti D's and stuff like that yet when I look at my life this time in sobriety I have been really miserable. I have been working my steps, going to meetings most everyday (except the day that I feel like I don't belong then I isolate), talking to my sponsor, SR, just trying to do everything to change my thinking and I can't. I have been praying I just don't understand what is going on with me. Anyway today was my 10 months so I guess that is good right?

Love Vic

Sugah