Giving myself Brain Damage
Acting not reacting
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Giving myself Brain Damage
Need some input please.
Why do some alcoholics say they are ready to recover
and others dont.
Why do some codependents look after themselves and
some dont?
Why does it hurt when you love the alcoholic so much
that they absolve themself of responsibilities?
I just cant get my around this thing here we call alcoholism.
Why can someone have so much potential
and throw it away because of addiction?
Why is it like this?
Why couldnt I accept his behavior as his and
mine as mine.
Why does it hurt so bad without him
and hurt so much with him?
Why does doing whats best for ne hurt so much?
Im really having an emotional day. I just hate this disease.
Why do some alcoholics say they are ready to recover
and others dont.
Why do some codependents look after themselves and
some dont?
Why does it hurt when you love the alcoholic so much
that they absolve themself of responsibilities?
I just cant get my around this thing here we call alcoholism.
Why can someone have so much potential
and throw it away because of addiction?
Why is it like this?
Why couldnt I accept his behavior as his and
mine as mine.
Why does it hurt so bad without him
and hurt so much with him?
Why does doing whats best for ne hurt so much?
Im really having an emotional day. I just hate this disease.
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Pittsburgh, PA
Posts: 261
I'm right there with you..Hard when you love someone and they've been the greatest love of your life, and they throw it all away..Hard when I see some men do great in recovery and they've never been married and have no children...Mine has/had everything to lose.... Hang in there girl!!! We cAn't change, them cure them, control them...
I HATE being the bigger peson. 
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Join Date: Jul 2004
Location: Starting over all over again
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Originally Posted by elizabeth1979
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I dont wanna be the bigger person.
I want to be the happy person.
I dont wanna be the bigger person.
I want to be the happy person.
I know. I feel the same way somedays. Most of the time I _am_ the happy person. The more I work this program, the more time I spend happy.
I dunno why addicts do what they do, or why anybody else does what they do. I'm learning a lot about why _I_ do what I do, so that I can quit doing stupid things and spend more time doing happy, healthy things.
(((((((((( hugs ))))))))))))
Mike :-)
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Originally Posted by elizabeth1979
Why does doing whats best for me hurt so much?
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Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: Arizona
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Oh I so understand...
even when I am with someone wonderful and new..I still do the "what ifs"..
My friend ran into my exabf last weekend..I spun for 2 days..asking questions that will never be answered..
All I can say is that I went to a meeting, stayed in the present and I've gotten better..
It will get better..it's just sucks sometimes..
even when I am with someone wonderful and new..I still do the "what ifs"..
My friend ran into my exabf last weekend..I spun for 2 days..asking questions that will never be answered..
All I can say is that I went to a meeting, stayed in the present and I've gotten better..
It will get better..it's just sucks sometimes..
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Join Date: Sep 2004
Location: Maryland
Posts: 64
Originally Posted by Dan
Addiction and alcoholism are bitches.
They offered me a cage to step in, and I said thank you.
They took all the best parts of me, leaving only that which became unsufferable to my family.
Why, indeed.
They offered me a cage to step in, and I said thank you.
They took all the best parts of me, leaving only that which became unsufferable to my family.
Why, indeed.
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