lonlion

Hello everyone, My name is Diana and I am a nicotine addict lol.

I have been wanting to quit for some time now. I decided since my last attempt that I was going to wait until I was down to half a pack, and just keep them here and not smoke them.

The last time I tried, I waited till I ran out completely, and then when I wanted one I was desperate to get them as soon as possible.
Maybe I am kidding myself by thinking I won't get into the half pack, but I have to try.

I see myself still doing the addictive behaviors, only now with the cigarettes. Natural I guess, considering I am an addict, but this too has to stop.

I decided I will use the same techniques to quit smoking as I did to quit drinking and drugs. History posted the HALT, and that is a good reminder. Don't worry, when I quit, I don't think I will allow myself to even get hungry lol.

Food will probably have to be the next addiction I have to work on after this. You may then see me in the eating forum lol.

I decided not to tell any one this time around, I don't want to disappoint them. I'm sure my daughter has wondered why I haven't asked her to buy me more, knowing how I feel about even running low.

I have 8 cigarettes left (besides the half pack that I am not opening).

I find myself with the same mindset I had when I knew I was going into treatment. Smoke as much as I can now, cause I won't have them later.

Talk about all or nothing mentality!

I'll keep ya posted

Diana

Evanna

Good luck Diana.

I didnt tell anyone either this time. My son in particular used to get all drawn in to the whole thing of mum quitting then upset when i didnt make it. So this time i just got on with it. I didnt bring it to his attention until i had a bit of time under my belt and felt sure of my commitment. Funnily enough, this eased the pressure on me too. I knew without doubt that it was my choice not to smoke rather than me not wanting to let anyone else down.

Deffo keep us posted.

lonlion

Well, my plan to not get into the last half pack didn't work. DUH
I guess deep down it was a bad plan. Like telling a drug addict to quit while there is still some in the house. I DON'T want to buy more....I DON'T

I will see how I am tomorrow when they are all gone. I cleaned out ashtrays today and will get rid of everything. I'm even thinking of telling my daughter to take my car to work tomorrow. I have no cash on me, so can't go to the store here, which does not take debit cards.

I have nicorette gum, and plan on using that for a while.

Wish me luck!

lonlion

OK it's been 36 hours without a cigarette!

I am trying to keep busy, but even at work they noticed I had an "edge" to me.

I know the first 3 days (72 hours) are the hardest, so I'm half way there. I feel like there is such a void in my life. Man, harder than I remembered.

I'm surprized at how tired I am. I am not hungry but feel the need to do something. How much of this is phycological/OCD? I am using the nicorette gum, so I know I am getting the nicotine.

Any suggestions....